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  1. I've been involved with a woman for a couple of years. In our everyday life, we're both involved in the decision making process,

    but she is definitely the BOSS in bed.  I'm in my mid-sixties, and she's 15 years younger, and from the beginning she was a very

    assertive lover.   She's highly orgasmic and demands a great deal of oral sex.  Which, by the way, turns me on a lot. She also

    controls my orgasms, frequently edging me without allowing me to release.  When we spend a weekend together, she will

    always have a dozen orgasms, or more.  She's VERY good with her hands and gives me my earth-shattering  weekly

    release just before we part.  We have a very good relationship, and even though I'm an old guy, I'm having the best sex of my life.

  2. I don't need to take the test, I'm your classic submissive, with a little masochism thrown in.

    I get aroused by a firm, stern mistress who quietly demands what she wants.

    If she wants to tie me up and paddle my ass, and torture my balls because of my impure

    thoughts, I'm all hers.  

    If she wants me to kiss her feet, her legs, her ass.

    A woman constantly sticking her fingers and toes into my mouth.

    And since she's dominant, she'll be in total control and demand that I masturbate for her.

     

     

     

     

  3. Hi subs,

     

    While reviewing some of Freud's cases this week, I couldn't help but get attached to a statement he made in his Dora case.

     

    He says that fetishes, when repressed, lead to neurosis. To lead a neurosis free life, we can't repress that urge and must acknowledge, and confront it.

     

    With that, I'd like to know your answers to the below:

     

    What do you think about this statement?

     

    What would your life be like if you did not explore bdsm?

     

    What has your open exploration of bdsm done for you, is it helpful? Therapeutic? Not effective?

     

    When did you first realize your urge and how?

     

    What drove you to explore it?

     

    I would like to know as much info as you are willing to provide. Feel free to PM me if you have that privilege and don't want to share answers publicly.

     

    x Fei

     

    What do I think of this statement?

     

    The first part of the statement, I'm in total agreement with. We're all as sick as our secrets, so when we repress an urge, in this case, fetishes,

    it leads us to cover-up and hide who we really are, and this will cause us a great deal of anxiety (I can't let anyone know who I really am) and

    over time, neuroses. I'm applying a simple dictionary definition of neuroses... "excessive, irrational anxiety and obsession which leads to an

    interpersonal maladjustment." No human being is anxiety-free, as someone a lot smarter than me once said, "Anxiety is the fundamental mood

    of existence." Yes, that's the difference between living things and inanimate objects. "I'm anxious, therefore I am." But one doesn't want to be

    so overwhelmed with anxiety/neuroses that one can't function in society.

    The second part of the statement, I agree with the part, "We can't repress that urge (fetish), and must acknowledge and confront it."

    The more you're in touch with who you really are, the more content (I refuse to say happy) and, hopefully, the less neurotic you'll be.

    But a neuroses-free life? Since you've just read it, I'm sure Freud said it, but in my readings of Freud (many moons ago) I remember him

    saying that psychoanalysis couldn't "cure" anyone, but it could take someone who was "depressed to the point of suicide" and lift them up

    to the level of the "general unhappiness" which is the human condition.

    But we're talking about BDSM, and I'd be very neurotic if I didn't live-out my submissive urges, because I've always felt profoundly

    inferior to women (probably because when a woman turns-me-on, she has incredible sexual/emotional power over me), and submitting

    to that power is an absolute turn-on for me.

    My exploration of BDSM is definitely therapeutic.

    The last two questions... When did you first realize your urge and how? And what drove you to explore it? Well, I could write a very

    detailed report on the evolution of my submissive tendencies, but it would be very long and this is not the place.

    Perhaps, you'll make it my next homework assignment?

  4. I love a challenge. How fast can you read? LOL And why were you having lunch with a bunch of middle-aged Brazilian women??

     

    Briefly- (according to the stats) the highest number of plastic surgeries are performed in the US, but when population is taken into account, the Korea leads.

     

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    http://www.usatoday....ntries/1892631/

     

    http://www.asianplas...ea-highest.html

     

    http://elitedaily.co...cates-to-prove/

     

    http://www.koreahera...=20130305000850

     

    http://www.seoultouc...ery-statistics/

     

    http://www.nytimes.c...wanted=all&_r=0

     

    http://starcasm.net/archives/259887

     

    Okay, Ms Kang, you win, I give-up, (and you didn't have to grab my balls to make me say that)

    Korea? I would've never thunk it, but the facts prove you right.

     

    I said "a few" Brazilian women, as in two or three. A "bunch" makes it sound like I'm holding

    court with a dozen women. I wish I could but I'm not that cool.

    Why am I with them? Let's call it business related.

  5. Hmmm SVSUB, that is a rather alienating comment.

    You might think that because Korea is the #1 cosmetic surgery capital of the world

    I think all asian women are beautiful

    I've heard, many times, that Rio is the #1 cosmetic surgery capital of the world.

    Till I read otherwise, I'll stick with Rio. I've been to Rio more than once, and if you're

    having lunch with a few middle-aged Brazilian women, it's like being on the upper

    East Side of Manhattan. "I would love to smile, but I CAN'T MOVE MY FACE!!"

    Asian women are mucho beautiful, whichever country they come from.

  6. At first I thought I'd get quickly bored (I'm too old for this silly shit) but I actually loved watching

    this (so much that I watched Things Asian girls Love & Hate). Though the focus was on Asian

    girls in their 20s, I still thought a lot of it was very funny.

    As far as FF women are concerned: I've been with Ms Tran many times and fitness/sporty seems right.

    Yappie? Foodie? I don't know, I think of her as a superstar dominatrix who immediately puts me in my

    place and loves to ridicule my "perverted tendencies" (her words).

    Ms Koi... she's so incredibly cute that on the surface she may seem "good," but in session "she bad"

    and that's made my sessions with her GREAT. "Geeky?" I guess you know her better than I do, but

    after a couple of sessions with Ms Koi, "geeky" is the last thing I'd call her.

    I've only had one session with Ms Lu (with Ms Koi) and she seemed like a "Good Asian Girl."

    Though she took a paddle to my ass (and balls) and made me say "mercy" a couple of times, most of

    the session she was soothing me as Ms Koi tormented me. She became my "good" mommy while Ms Koi

    was the "bad" mommy. It was a spontaneous fantasy that was a lot of fun.

    I'm having my first session with Ms Fei next week and if she's a "Brainiac" our chemistry may be real good.

    A teasing and tormenting "Brainiac" would be perfect.

    I haven't had a session with Ms Zhao. Maybe I should. Tran and Zhao... who would be the boss?

  7. When I was very young, I was always attracted to bossy girls... even when I was eight or nine, I remember that my skin tingled

    when a girl spoke fresh to me... I didn't know why, but I liked it. When I was in the 8th grade, I guess I was 14, I was in the gym

    and I walked by a group of girls who were wrestling. I watched them for a while.This one girl, a real tomboy, Erica, was winning

    all the matches. The other girls started to tell Erica that if she thought she was so strong, she should wrestle a boy, and they all

    pointed at me. I felt embarrassed, but before long I was on the mat, facing Erica. I was bigger than her, and we were both wearing

    t-shirts and gym shorts. She rushed at me and shoved me. All the girls were cheering for Erica, and when she shoved me again,

    I grabbed her arms and threw her down on the mat. She didn't like it and jumped-up and we grappled for a few moments till I grabbed

    her and threw her down on the mat again. I got on top of her and I was trying to pin her when her hand came up between my legs

    and grabbed my crotch and squeezed it as hard as she could. It HURT LIKE HELL and I couldn't pull her hand away and I started

    begging her to stop. Finally, she let go of me and got up, leaving me on the mat, laying on my stomach, holding my balls.

    All the girls stood around me, laughing, telling Erica she had really kicked my ass. And for the next month, whenever one of the

    girls passed me in the hallway, they'd grab their crotch and ridicule me.

    I didn't know why, but it was a big turn-on... and forty years later, I still think about it sometimes, and it still turns me on.

  8. I'm a sub, a masochist, and I've always derived the most pleasure in my sexual relations when the woman is assertive,

    makes sexual demands on me (like a lot of oral sex), controls my balls, my orgasms, and everything else about my

    sexual pleasure. But I've had a few (very few) relationships where the woman has needed me to be the top.

    One particular "relationship" comes to mind. I was in my mid-twenties (yes, still young and cute), and the woman was

    close to 40 (she never told me her real age). Well, one night we were in a bar together and she asked me to come

    to her place for a "cup of coffee." It wasn't really about the coffee, and before long we were hugging and kissing

    and touching each other. A little while later we were in her bedroom, and I had my face between her thighs, feeling

    her pelvis moving, her excitement building, when suddenly she froze. I wasn't sure what happened, I thought maybe

    she'd had a tepid orgasm, but then she said, "Do you have fantasies?"

    Well, my whole life's a fantasy, so we started talking and she told me she couldn't have an orgasm without first

    getting a good spanking.

    I felt terribly awkward, but before long she was lying across my lap, and I was spanking her ass.

    Later, in the sixty-nine position (her on top), she had a very intense orgasm.

    This relationship went on for several months. At first, I spanked her with with my hand, then I used a ping pong paddle.

    When I was down on her, she'd often say, "Give me pain" and I'd bite her thighs, and her stomach, up to her breasts.

    I'd bite her hard and she'd twist and moan with pain.

    She never did have an orgasm without a good painful spanking.

    Eventually, we drifted apart, but even now, many years later, I think about it and get aroused.

    I guess there's a sadist lurking somewhere in this masochistic soul of mine.

  9. Its not out of "meanness" dear spocky. I think I'm quite tender. Its out of devotion, remember ;) And yes I do think I could reach 100.

     

    By the way, I have a funny story for you regarding meditative states and Trader Joe's. :)

     

    Mistress Jung says she could take a hundred shots to the balls? It's easy for her to say, since she doesn't have

    a ball-sack dangling between her legs. When I had my session with Ms Ree, she tied-up my balls so tight, they

    turned blue, and then she slapped and paddled and kicked and squeezed them till I was passing-out. With my

    balls tied-up, there wasn't any give, and after twenty (she didn't stop there) shots, I was near to collasping and

    passing-out. Mistress Ree is a class-A ball-buster. I walked around with a persistant ache in my groin for days

    after our session.

     

    Slave D

  10. I'm assuming Ms Zhao took these photos, and all I can say is that the artistic quality

    of Ms Ahn's pictures is astounding -- they should be in a major magazine... these pics

    are so sexy that I've already done what Ms Ahn has watched me do many times... I'm

    sure that by the time the weekend rolls around, I'm going to be quite sore.

    Thank you, Ms Ahn, for being the drop-dead gorgeous goddess that you are... and

    thank you, Ms Zhao for your wonderful talent... and, of course, thank you, Ms Kang,

    for allowing us to view it all.

     

    SlaveD

  11. Requests for a photo shoot? I've sesssioned a number of times with Ms Ahn,

    and nothing turns me on more than some serious ball-busting... I'm sure I'm

    not alone. If you could include a ball-busting sequence in your photo-shoot,

    I'm sure it'll be much appreciated by your fans.

     

    SlaveD

  12. I've written reviews of my first two visits with Mistress Ahn (in the Devotee forum), and I've seen

    her since, so I know that a sub's tolerance level has to be high to fully enjoy her talents. She's the

    perfect mistress for me -- tall, slim, beautiful, and fully equipped to administer the sort of pain

    and discipline I need. I try to please her... it's not always easy... but at the end of our last session,

    I heard her laugh and say, "Quite a show!" So, I think I may have finally pleased her.

    What tickles me most about her are the conversations we have after our sessions. Though she's

    a very demanding, no-nonsense mistress, she turns into a shy little girl while we talk -- averting

    her eyes and giggling nervously as we discuss simple everyday things.

    It endears me to her. I'll be seeing her again, soon.

    Good luck, subDC1, you'll need it! My girl's gonna kick your ass!

     

    Slave D

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