tommygermany

OMG, where to start after being awake for over 40 hours because of the flight home from yesterday til today. Please forgive me if something I write does not make sense Sunday late in the afternoon I was scheduled for something, that could have been a life changing experience. A sissy-play with the unbelievably gorgeous Mistress Ahn. It started all with a shoe fetish, so some time back I secretly bought my fist pair of High Heels. And I wore them at home, trying to walk with them. But then somewhen reason came into play and I tried to push that aside. I was back to my boring life again. Until somewhen I saw that dress and it struck me, that it would be surely matching well with my heels... I was kinda shocked, as I recognized, what I was thinking. So I decided to surpress this kind of thinking. But the seed had hit the soil... so this fantasy started growing. But I didn't make a move to follow that phantasy. I was a coward and afraid of the humiliation, that, I thought, would be coming if someone around me knew. So there was this fantasy, but still I never bought women's appearal before. So first time I thought I should really try to find out, what this is about, was when I came to New York about 2 years ago. I found the fetish fortress on the internet and was awestruck by the beauty of the players there. So I was asking for an appointment, but I couldn't get an appointment, when I wanted it to be and I had other plans for the times I got an offer for an appointment. Well it happens when you don't live in and just travel to New York. The same happened the next time when I was in New York, because I travel there occasionally. This time I came for the Knicks game against the Mavs and I from the moment I arrived, I knew this time it has to happen. And all my thoughts were about how will it be, when I transform into a "woman" and I wanted to be sexy and kinda got carried away. Since I didn't bring my heels along I bought two new pairs, an evening dress, a secretary skirt outfit, a pair of leggings and some other stuff. Hoping it fits together. But still I was not sure wether this was going to be a one time thing, or if it would reveal something like the real me. Maybe that My mind wanted to tell me I was a woman in a man's body. (who knew?) But I knew I was going to find it out sunday after the Knicks game. Those of you who were at the fortress before, know the screening process and then after I was standing in the room, Mistrees Ahn entered. The sunrise over Waikiki Beach couldn't match the beauty of her. Still though I was so overwhelmed, that I didn't get out more than a whispered "wow" she was so sweet from the beginning, that after being shocked by her beauty and her breathtaking overknee boots, I felt comfortable in an instant. She asked me to show what I had bought and she said with every new item, how much she liked it and that we were going to have so much fun. And I have to admit she was right I enjoyed and treasure every second with Mistress Ahn at this session. She created a mood, which was undenyable, I trusted her completely with everything she did and suggested. And it was a pleasure to see her smile, when something she did, came out the way she wanted it. While she put on the Make up, which was really needed I didn't dare to move. Actually I couldn't. I felt like her doll, I couldn't move. I remember thinking how silly it has to look with me sitting there and my arms dangling at the site with nothing to do. But when Mistress Ahn smiled, because the next step of being made up was taken and because she liked it, then I knew that at this time it was my destiny to be like wax in her fingers. Great was it, too, when she did some reconsidering and looked me up like giving it a playful thought and you could see in her eyes, that she was thrilled with the new idea I think maybe next to putting on the Make-Up she enjoyed framing me into two different corsetts...lol... my rips still ache... Too bad there was just such a limited time, but it was really the life redefining experience that I was hoping for. After the session I know, I don't want to be a woman and don't want to pretend to be a woman, and there i no woman trying to come out. Although Mistress Ahn tried everything to convince me, that she thought I looked so pretty. But I saw her in the mirror next to me, so I knew there will never be enough Make-Up in this world to make me look, like I'd have to, to feel comfortable as woman. Still it doesn't mean, I would never do this again, because Mistress Ahn seemed to be really enjoying what she was doing, and if it is my destiny to make her happy, and she wants to do it again (with more time for her, to work more on details etc...) I would do it for her. And if she likes the result and asks me to show it in public, I would feel honoured to go out with her! So what I take out of this session is, that I now know, that I still am a guy. But I have a fetish for women's clothes and shoes. But I won't be a man trying to be or to pretend to be a woman, but I am a man, who likes to wear women's wear, and after that session I think, why not Just trying on Mistress Ahn's Overknees (older ones) gave me a new sensation, that I feel comfortable wearing Heels. And I hope there will be other experiences to follow. Mistress Ahn, thank you so much. I really hope you really enjoyed the session as much as you gave me the feeling you did! Yours, Tommy