Hi Johnny,
Very interesting post. You are quite correct, there is a spiritual world and I have no doubt at all that dabbling in the occult you have seen much evidence of it!
Whether Calvinists have it right, or Evangelicals do, is moot. Whether you are predetermined for salvation or not is not important. The fact is, you yourself Johnny have the opportunity right now to accept Jesus as your Savior. That, even Calvinists agree, is what is needed for your salvation. Without Him, you have no chance. Like you said, you have read the Scriptures, so you can no longer claim ignorance of the law.
Fear not - fear is from the enemy. Our Father is a loving God, He creates because He loves. It is beyond me, and I assume beyond most mortals, to understand Divine Will. But you don't need to fear being separated from our Father for eternity. You don't need to fear damnation.
