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9 hours ago, Mistress Diana Gong said:
Its like...someone's gotta be the "adult" here ?
Exactly. And the one in the pink stockings, pink chastity device, pink ballgag and wearing that collar would not be a good choice for the "adult." At least not for the next few hours.
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i was turned on by bondage before puberty. any movie with someone getting tied up was inherently intriguing. everything has grown out from that kink. as you Professionals know, there's a lot more to bondage than rope. there's helplessness, vulnerability, consent/nonconsent, one-sided negotiation, but also a sense of Dominant protection. while in bondage, the Dominatrix is both my antagonist and, weirdly, my protector. the one who keeps me safe - especially from myself and over-estimating my limits..
I was never into feminization and chastity or my other strong current kinks in my early years. but i was led to them thru the portal of bondage. and bondage was there before i was 10. maybe 6 or 7?
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I'm more inclined to the unexpected sissy school.
For instance, an aptitude test for employment has resulted in being sent to a remote office in a foreboding location. I'm buzzed up to a darkened floor, sent to a room and told to strip and leave my clothes in the hall. I do so. After a few minutes I hear a noise outside, and when I go to check it, i find that my clothes are gone.
After a long nervous wait the door finally opens. I am confronted with 2 powerful, very dominant looking women. They inform me that the job i showed the most aptitude for was sissy-maid. I tell them that wouldn't really work for me. They respond that they don't care what would work for me. I am soon tied to the rack and being fitted for a pink collar.....
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wonderfully dangerous looking photo, Mistress.
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Bondage.
Bondage, bondage, bondage.
Bondage.
Whenever I saw it in a movie, tv show, comics - it hit me at a subconscious level. The way art and music does. Connects to something that is already there.
What is harder is understanding one is submissive. Not simply drawn to flights of fancy, ie, fetish. But truly wanting to be led in this one part of life. So as to balance off the parts of life where one does not have that luxury.
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I like the use of demeaning pet names when they are spoken matter-of-factly or even affectionately rather than in an intentionally humiliating contemptuous manner. If that makes sense.
Sissy, whore, bitch, slut, beta.
They all cut deeper when they aren't spat out as insults. Humbling, which is longer term, vs humiliating, which is shorter term.
In other words, it isn't "I'm so angry/disappointed that I'm calling you this now."
Rather it's "This is what and who you are. It has nothing to do with this moment. It's your genus and species. You won't stop being this later or when i am not present. Your only serious goal should be to get the word 'slave' added to what you already are. Sissy Slave for instance..."
What do you like to be called besides your name?
What names do Dommes like to use to put someone in their proper place?
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2 feet of water in the basement. Heat and hot water are toast, so to speak. Switching to more climate change-proof equipment.
But... somehow this anxiety provoking experience has really left me needing to be tied up tightly with someone alternately cropping me and whispering in my ear. "You're safe now, little bitch. (crop) At least you are safe from flooding. But if you wanted to be safe from becoming a sissy-slut, you knocked on the wrong door... (crop, crop)" Whispering dark plans seductively between strokes is just so....
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On 6/19/2021 at 10:21 AM, jawz said:
Had an amazing session yesterday with MVD. As my nurse, Mistress Von Dietz put me through my paces with a thorough examination. Great session at the fully reopened Fortress
Nursing, yum. Maybe it's this long (and finally winding down) psychological trauma of covid.
I've been drawn to healthcare scenarios lately. Mine is a therapist. I've reported to her that my forced femme fantasies have become unmanageably intense during the long quarantine. I am seeking professional help to make them "go away." Reviewing my case, she sees nothing wrong with these fantasies. In fact she considers them perfectly healthy in my case - while fighting against them is unhealthy and must stop. She agrees to "treat" me. But I soon discover that the treatment that she and a hench-therapist have in mind is to turn the fantasies into realities. In longterm treatment...
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They definitely can. If you've ever read my fiction posts, they're always about non-consensual consent. As are my sessions. But I've never been that interested in al fresco captive taking. For one thing the logistics aren't worth the pay-off. And with covid, even at this late stage, any sort of outdoor activity needs to be seriously reassessed for risk/reward.
I'm more into in-house scenes. That is - to be someplace for a normal reason and find that something nefarious is waiting. For instance...
You need a clean bill of health to be able to return to your office after a year of quarantine. Specifically, you need a positive psychological evaluation after all that time of limited interaction. Your company has hired FF Investigations to perform these evaluations. Your written test was a little sketchy, suggesting some rather dark fantasies. They hack your computer and find all those fetish pictures, website links... Pretty pervy. But in addition to providing standard psychological evaluations FFI experiments with mind control, psychological conditioning and "owns" its own submissives...
FF sees the opportunity. They'll give you a clean bill of health. But only if you submit to them completely. Otherwise no. Suddenly your psych eval involves a locked room down a darkened hallway with no way out and no one able to find you until FF are satisfied. If they ever are.
Interrogation? I like interrogations with no answer. So that it's up to the interrogator to believe you rather than for you to tell them what they need to know. In this case they could demand the name of any Mistress you are seeing. Because you won't be seeing them anymore. You belong to FF now. You seem VERY turn on by this experience so it's hard for them to believe you don't have a Mistress somewhere. But she deserves to be told that you have "decided" to participate in psychological conditioning and mind control experiments at FFI and cannot be exposed to any other ... milder... form of dominance.
You could also be tortured until you agree to sing a consent form agreeing to essentially become the mind control toy of FFI. It could be a blank sheet of paper with just a place to sign at the bottom. You won't even know what you're agreeing to.... But this allows you to control the ending - just as you would by giving information in an interrogation.
And so on....
Just think of anything you HAVE to do, places you HAVE to go - doctors, dentists, job interviews.... And imagine someone else waiting behind the door with a very different agenda from yours.
Finding the right roleplay skills will not be a problem at FF.
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14 hours ago, franknot said:
CO... I'm happy to hear of your good fortune.
You mentioned a chess game and it reminded me of a blog post I read the other day...
*(Note the last paragraph).Yours is a new game on a new board with a new player and with no established rules.. So why does 'deserve' even enter into this game.... And it is just a game.. not a competition.Seems wiser to simply enjoy participating in the game and not worry too much about the score.we went to a hotel on saturday. i now have a definition of "holy fuck."
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On 12/17/2020 at 11:08 AM, Dannyboy said:
CO:
Thank you for clearing that up for me. I am still unfamiliar with pre-social media language and highly influenced by the quality public education I received in my generation. I am too old to change.
She sounds highly desirable. I have a great level of comfort with highly educated or highly intelligent women. My first wife had a voice that could shatter glass and she didn't reveal that before the marriage vows. My young lady has those 3 qualities but lacks the high intellect of my Filipina Princess whose path in life doesn't include me in the long run. I should be happy with my exotically beautiful barbie doll and enjoy what little I have in common with the Filipina who will be successful in all aspects of her life without me.
Dannyboy
Thanks, Danny. It's complicated. Could be my catholic upbringing, but I struggle to believe I deserve her even as I remain 3 chess moves behind.
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2 hours ago, Dannyboy said:
Forgive my ignorance - what is "AF?"
Dannyboy
As fuck.
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Recently started dating someone who is switchy but sub-leaning. Sexy AF, funny AF, and with a voice that would melt glass. We are in the process of working out some ground rules.
As far as who leads goes... she has multiple advanced degrees including a PhD on which the ink is still drying. She's effing brilliant on top of that, ie, not spouting from texts but synthesizing advanced learning with her own moxie and wisdom. Previously I've been either at least a little smarter than, funnier than, or more creative than everyone I have ever dated or married. I don't think I consciously sought it. But it's quite strange to be acutely aware that suddenly none of those are fully in my column. Topping her doesn't involve addressing the perceived imbalance. That would be shitty.
But it's quite a toboggan ride. No brakes, not much steering, just stay on and try not to crash into the ski lodge.
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I had a bit of a crisis early last year, quit sessioning, etc. Pulling out of it, I imposed a lot of discipline on myself, lost over 50lbs. But mostly cardio - running, cycling - and low-carb. A trim little slut now.
On the one hand, I want to be seriously (wo)man-handled. Thrown against the wall, shackled to that big frame, gagged, something malevolent whispered in my ear about what a seriously bad idea it was to stay away. On the other hand, I want to sit quietly, with my ass now probably the color of my valentine-red stockings, and massage your feet and ask how you've been. (If you have removed my gag - it's ok if you haven't).
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Love the psychology of it. The mind-games and mind-control, the vulnerability. I love the hierarchy shift too. You are at the bottom rung of the ladder as a sub. As a feminized sub you are a few rungs below that. At the same time I don't like anger/contempt based feminization scenes. They're depressing. What are we saying when we say that?
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Still have lotsa meetings. I'm on cam from the neck up. Sometimes dress pretty tart-y from the waist down. Just have to remember not to stand up.
Getting close to needing a haircut. What's the experience been with that?
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On 4/29/2020 at 11:56 AM, Dannyboy said:
I had a weird dream last night that didn't occur in the Fortress but Mina Jung was a central figure. There was a marathon relay race with 4 runners on each team. Each runner would have to cover just over 6 1/2 miles and hand off the baton to the next runner. I led off for my team and then found myself in a room with a tv and a bed. Mina and I were on the bed watching the race as it progressed. I told her how exhausted I felt but I had to push beyond the pain because I couldn't let my team down. She massaged my leg muscles for a bit and then looked me in the eyes and said "Danny................I love you."
At that moment I felt that my dreams came true but she seemed shocked by what she said. She turned red and told me she should not have said that and didn't know what got into her at that moment. I suggested that her true feelings may have surfaced and she could not resist the impulse to express them. In the dream I had the feeling of completeness at that moment. Then the dream went somewhere else that I can't recall. I often forget dreams except greatly disturbing dreams.
I woke up very groggy since I took allergy meds when I went to sleep. I feel emotionally drained as I often do after this kind of dream. It was disturbing even though it was beautiful. I think of a Roy Orbison song "In Dreams"
.....But just before the dawn, I awake and find you gone....
....It's too bad that all these things, Can only happen in my dreams. Only in dreams, in beautiful dreams.
Dannyboy
You were a runner, no? I shouldn't run but I still do. Nothing can replace it, the psychology of it, the satisfaction of it - exceeds anything else. I could see where it would gateway to other emotions in dreams. I just rarely remember mine.
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A few assisted living facilities in the neighborhood. 15 fatalities at one, 10 at another. Not people I knew, just sad though. With covid most people have to die alone with a stranger in a mask to be their last connection.
It seems like the corner (at least the first corner, who knows what the autumn will bring..) has been turned. Parks open in NJ this weekend. I'm feeling a need for a certain kind of session. A restatement session.
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On 4/5/2020 at 11:20 PM, The Spermwhale said:
After the quarantine will the producers of "My 600 Pound Life" find me or should I look for them?
Rough days here. Needed that. Thanks SW.
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5 hours ago, Jayman said:
How is everyone doing? I hope you are all staying safe. Found out a co worker passed away from Coronavirus yesterday. They were young, fit and healthy. Two weeks ago they were fine. So please take care of yourselves.
So sorry to hear that. So cruel for this to hit in spring when everyone wants to get out, take in the spring and fill their lungs with springtime.
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The most vexing are runners and couples.
A lot of runners seem to be thrilled by the prospect of piling up the miles during quarantine. But all that heavy breathing in confined spaces and narrow walkways is beyond selfish. I still run a little too, but I keep an eye down the street and manage my positioning so no one has to adjust to me to maintain a comfortable distance.
Couples, especially younger ones, just can't seem to bear to be apart long enough to stop holding hands and single file so no one has to exit the pavement to get the recommended distance from them. As if the relationship won't survive the parting, or their sweet emotions will ward off the evil virus.
There's a lot of piling on millennials, gen z, etc. these days. But those are the groups most responsible for the most obnoxious behavior I've seen. I've got a fair number of seniors in my neighborhood. I think if these folks realized they might kill one of them just by being their wonderful snowflake selves they might think twice. But they'll never know.
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Babylon Berlin. I've seen seasons 1 & 2. Actually has a little BDSM subtext. Season 3 is out now.
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On 3/19/2020 at 6:47 PM, Mistress Kang said:
Have you thought of trying recipes you wouldn't normally tackle on a weeknight? I'm all stocked for lasagna but forgot the ricotta ?Any suggestions for an alternative with similar ingredients? I've vacuum sealed the meat sauce.
Reminds me of a meme I saw. I love the "due to personal reasons" part.
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2 hours ago, The Spermwhale said:
Try mayonnaise in a pinch.
Luckily there's not milk to drink, because that woulda made it come out my nose.
This Year I Really Want To...
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sissygasm. i just love the idea. i don't know if i am built for it, but want to see.
faux trans session. a 2 Domme session in which one (very convincingly) pretends to be trans and eager to corrupt a slutty virgin. visual aid below..