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sissygasm. i just love the idea. i don't know if i am built for it, but want to see. faux trans session. a 2 Domme session in which one (very convincingly) pretends to be trans and eager to corrupt a slutty virgin. visual aid below..

Exactly. And the one in the pink stockings, pink chastity device, pink ballgag and wearing that collar would not be a good choice for the "adult." At least not for the next few hours.

i was turned on by bondage before puberty. any movie with someone getting tied up was inherently intriguing. everything has grown out from that kink. as you Professionals know, there's a lot more to bondage than rope. there's helplessness, vulnerability, consent/nonconsent, one-sided negotiation, but also a sense of Dominant protection. while in bondage, the Dominatrix is both my antagonist and, weirdly, my protector. the one who keeps me safe - especially from myself and over-estimating my limits.. I was never into feminization and chastity or my other strong current kinks in my early years. but i was led to them thru the portal of bondage. and bondage was there before i was 10. maybe 6 or 7?

I'm more inclined to the unexpected sissy school. For instance, an aptitude test for employment has resulted in being sent to a remote office in a foreboding location. I'm buzzed up to a darkened floor, sent to a room and told to strip and leave my clothes in the hall. I do so. After a few minutes I hear a noise outside, and when I go to check it, i find that my clothes are gone. After a long nervous wait the door finally opens. I am confronted with 2 powerful, very dominant looking women. They inform me that the job i showed the most aptitude for was sissy-maid. I tell them that wouldn't really work for me. They respond that they don't care what would work for me. I am soon tied to the rack and being fitted for a pink collar.....

wonderfully dangerous looking photo, Mistress.

Bondage. Bondage, bondage, bondage. Bondage. Whenever I saw it in a movie, tv show, comics - it hit me at a subconscious level. The way art and music does. Connects to something that is already there. What is harder is understanding one is submissive. Not simply drawn to flights of fancy, ie, fetish. But truly wanting to be led in this one part of life. So as to balance off the parts of life where one does not have that luxury.

I like the use of demeaning pet names when they are spoken matter-of-factly or even affectionately rather than in an intentionally humiliating contemptuous manner. If that makes sense. Sissy, whore, bitch, slut, beta. They all cut deeper when they aren't spat out as insults. Humbling, which is longer term, vs humiliating, which is shorter term. In other words, it isn't "I'm so angry/disappointed that I'm calling you this now." Rather it's "This is what and who you are. It has nothing to do with this moment. It's your genus and species. You won't stop being this later or when i am not present. Your only serious goal should be to get the word 'slave' added to what you already are. Sissy Slave for instance..." What do you like to be called besides your name? What names do Dommes like to use to put someone in their proper place?

2 feet of water in the basement. Heat and hot water are toast, so to speak. Switching to more climate change-proof equipment. But... somehow this anxiety provoking experience has really left me needing to be tied up tightly with someone alternately cropping me and whispering in my ear. "You're safe now, little bitch. (crop) At least you are safe from flooding. But if you wanted to be safe from becoming a sissy-slut, you knocked on the wrong door... (crop, crop)" Whispering dark plans seductively between strokes is just so....

Nursing, yum. Maybe it's this long (and finally winding down) psychological trauma of covid. I've been drawn to healthcare scenarios lately. Mine is a therapist. I've reported to her that my forced femme fantasies have become unmanageably intense during the long quarantine. I am seeking professional help to make them "go away." Reviewing my case, she sees nothing wrong with these fantasies. In fact she considers them perfectly healthy in my case - while fighting against them is unhealthy and must stop. She agrees to "treat" me. But I soon discover that the treatment that she and a hench-therapist have in mind is to turn the fantasies into realities. In longterm treatment...

They definitely can. If you've ever read my fiction posts, they're always about non-consensual consent. As are my sessions. But I've never been that interested in al fresco captive taking. For one thing the logistics aren't worth the pay-off. And with covid, even at this late stage, any sort of outdoor activity needs to be seriously reassessed for risk/reward. I'm more into in-house scenes. That is - to be someplace for a normal reason and find that something nefarious is waiting. For instance... You need a clean bill of health to be able to return to your office after a year of quarantine. Specifically, you need a positive psychological evaluation after all that time of limited interaction. Your company has hired FF Investigations to perform these evaluations. Your written test was a little sketchy, suggesting some rather dark fantasies. They hack your computer and find all those fetish pictures, website links... Pretty pervy. But in addition to providing standard psychological evaluations FFI experiments with mind control, psychological conditioning and "owns" its own submissives... FF sees the opportunity. They'll give you a clean bill of health. But only if you submit to them completely. Otherwise no. Suddenly your psych eval involves a locked room down a darkened hallway with no way out and no one able to find you until FF are satisfied. If they ever are. Interrogation? I like interrogations with no answer. So that it's up to the interrogator to believe you rather than for you to tell them what they need to know. In this case they could demand the name of any Mistress you are seeing. Because you won't be seeing them anymore. You belong to FF now. You seem VERY turn on by this experience so it's hard for them to believe you don't have a Mistress somewhere. But she deserves to be told that you have "decided" to participate in psychological conditioning and mind control experiments at FFI and cannot be exposed to any other ... milder... form of dominance. You could also be tortured until you agree to sing a consent form agreeing to essentially become the mind control toy of FFI. It could be a blank sheet of paper with just a place to sign at the bottom. You won't even know what you're agreeing to.... But this allows you to control the ending - just as you would by giving information in an interrogation. And so on.... Just think of anything you HAVE to do, places you HAVE to go - doctors, dentists, job interviews.... And imagine someone else waiting behind the door with a very different agenda from yours. Finding the right roleplay skills will not be a problem at FF.

we went to a hotel on saturday. i now have a definition of "holy fuck."

Thanks, Danny. It's complicated. Could be my catholic upbringing, but I struggle to believe I deserve her even as I remain 3 chess moves behind.

As fuck.