AdventureGhost

So I've been a switch dabbling in bdsm for a good 15+ years, starting when I was a teen. I've rarely seen professionals since I've been just been scraping by in non-profit work and grad school for most of my adult life. When I have, I've been pretty disappointed. My most recent experience before coming to FF was with a so-called "world-class" domme that didn't bother to read my hard limits list and then proceeded to hit my hard limits. *Sigh* So after saving for months, I wanted to give professional bdsm one more try, though I still went into FF with good bit of trepidation. It had great reviews, but so did the last professional. Enough volume can create sufficient testimonials. I did an hour double domme session with Mistress Zito and Mistress Von Dietz at the beginning of August. To any skeptics out there, let me just say my experience vastly outclassed any previous professional experience. I'm not sure how memorable I was to them, but they left an indelible mark in my memory. They clearly read my interests and request list and implemented most of them in our short period of time. Not only were my hard limits respected, nothing was done to me that was not on my list. I had gone in really hoping to be tortured like a bdsm boy toy, playfully and lustily used. This corresponding disposition in dommes, and tops in general, seems hard to come by. There's plenty of domming with verbal abuse and meanness, a callous degrading of the sub -- obviously a psychological need for many that I relate to. But I just wanted to feel like a desirable toy, that this was the sum total of my value and utility. I believe a universal human desire is the need to be understood, and I felt for the first time in a long time, truly listened to and used in a way that made me feel like "someone gets me". Even if in the back of my mind I realized that Mistresses Zito and Von Dietz were only acting out a role -- cute sadism may not be their actual preferred style of play and I might not have been cute enough to be a boy toy of theirs that either of them would use in the "real" world -- the role play was sufficiently good to suspend my disbelief. If I can ever make it NYC again, I have no doubt where I will be for another professional experience. Mistress Zito and Mistress Von Dietz, thank you making my first time one of the best times of my life. And I would love to hear any recommendations for future visits to FF. Maybe there are some other subs out there who have the same needs as me.