nyisles

I had my first experience with BDSM when I was 17 with a woman from Long Island I was seeing. Cat O Nine Tails, Shaving, Dildos, clamps. It was fun, and I never safeworded during the scene. In fact I wound up safewording on less many times in the future do to the lack of comfort. Anyway, when I turned 18 I went to The Vault with her. After playing with her numerous times BDSM enveloped my thoughts. But at the Vault I was taken back with being stripped and the wandering wankers. At 18 I wasnt comfortable with my sexuality, and to a degree I still am not. Anyway, I couldnt handle the vault I asked not to play to which she took offense and I was released. After this event I supressed my BDSM desires for years. I didn't expand on them for 10 years. So I guess the answer for me is it depends on how the session goes. Ive dated Dommes and all I could do was think about serving and scening. Then Ive played with Dommes and I put it out of my head for months at a time because it didn't go so well. Inside me there is full time submissive/slave dying to come out but I have never been able to let down my guard long term. I think that is why I am looking forward to my session at the fortress. If it goes well, I can see embracing the inner me for a long period of time. Hopefully my expecatations do not let me down.

Im so glad to hear that, i read something on there that had me rethinking my visit. Whew!

With my first visit coming up to the Fortress my mind is racing.. but as always I get ahead of myself and I find myself thinking... If the Mistress of my choice and I hit it off, should I stick with her as we will be building a connection? Or, should I mix things up and experiment with other Dommes to learn more about myself, and aspects of BDSM. If I do change it up and I don't like the change and I went back to the first Domme would she be insulted?

Im curious to why you wouldnt want Dommes with Domme experience. Or do you mean Pro-Domme experience?

I think this goes both ways. I know the person I am with often is my business partner who is as vanilla as they come. He would never understand the practices I keep.