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The Black Ant on 2nd avenue gave me the experience of cuisine with ants. It was interesting to say the least.

As a bad boy who kept sneaking snacks, a Mistress squashed two canolis with her feet and made me lick each one clean. All while she reminded me with disgust that I was a nothing but a gluttonous pig. A second was a Mistress chewing food and then spitting it into my mouth to eat. Like a helpless baby bird. Mastication sessions are hot.

Everything. I would do anything to be forgiven by my Mistress. Failure on my part is to terrible to think about. I get emotional thinking she could ignore me for days or weeks at a time if she chose or the unthinkable by discarding me. For absolution there is no price I would be unwilling to pay for it. 😢

The punishment I deserve. There is nothing worse for a submissve knowing that he has failed his Mistress. The punishment be it physical or psychological does not compare to the subs feeling of failure. I love my Mistress. She takes care of me. She guides me. She is the most powerful force in my life. Yet, I failed and deserve punishment. It hurts so much because of what she means to me.

The Night Porter and The Dreamers are two others I like.

Female Domme, two male sub followed by a cuckolding by another man and servitude throughout by both subs. I need this off my bucket list.

Golden. I thought it would be too much even for me. My Domme suggested it and if I was game how would I want it. So we agreed to in the shower just on my stomach and cock. It was hot AF. She made me masturbate with her gold nectar as lube. One of the top five orgasms of my life.

A herertic fork is criminally underrated. You cannot look away at the terrors your Mistress will do to you. An open mouth gag is also good. Perfect to test out a variety of toys. Puts a test on my gag reflex. Or if my Domme has a well hung man in wait.

I imagine a very calm Mistress who with the quietest of instructions can get me to do anything she desires. I have no need for screaming or harsh language. Power is in presence. A true Domme gets what she wants with the slightest glance. With the ease of her voice not rising a single octave.

Going through the mad minute in the Fortress with a cane forever scarred me. I love and fear the cane at the same time.

Abandoned child kept in the basement for the sadistic pleasure of my captor. The emotional torment of being alone combined with torture makes for good stockholm syndrome.

Realizing you are powerless is a feeling of complete freedom. I need not be concerned about anything in my former life. Everything is now at the direction of my Mistress. I no longer have to think. I merely obey. My feelings are of complete trust and safety for her to take me on this journey. She controls my thoughts. She dictates my actions. Only when I am powerless I am truly free.

As a first timer I recommend a list of the things you want to explore. It does not have to follow specific scenarios unless that is what you want. When I started It was 2-3 things I wanted to try and then grew with more experience. Keep it simple with what you like. Two hours may be good for a first time. The Fortress Mistresses are excellent communicators. You will have time to get to know them. Share your interests. Then go at a pace that is comfortable for you. I am glad you are taking the plunge. Nerve racking but a lifetime of rewards await. Good luck!

Harsh words can crush a sub even more than any physical instrument. I love verbal humiliation.

I am shy but most Mistresses are intuitive. They can see right through me. They know my darkest fantasies and wield that knowledge.

I usually role play but have never quit in the middle. I don't use a detailed plan. Just an outline so my MIstress can take it where she wants to. I find that works best.

The Piano Teacher and The Night Porter.

A reverse of the film The Piano Teacher would make a good role play.

I am willing to go through what MIstress Kang calls the mad minute. Fast unrelenting cane strokes for one minute. I went through it once and I was completely shattered afterwards. All to hear my MIstress tell me I was a good boy.

I recommend booking an hour since this is your first time. The ideas you mentioned could absolutely be fulfilled in that time. I would communicate those ideas in an email or phone call. The Fortress is superb at pairing you with a Mistress if you don't have one already. My advice is to go slow and let is build organically. Your Domme will go at the pace you set. There are also words you can use to slow down or stop if things get intense. We have all had a first time. Good luck! Life is too short to not experience all it has to offer.

I love being spat on or directly into my mouth. It is so hot and degrading. I also have done mastication at the Fortress where a Mistress chewed fresh fruit and spat it into my mouth. To be fed with her bodily fluids was a HUGE turn on.

Pray to whatever deity you can if that gives you some solace. You will be crushed regardless. Acceptance of that is probably the way to go.