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Lots of pride and sloth, maybe some gluttony and some lust I guess technically. But not really much greed or envy! Prone to anger though I'd say.
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On 3/9/2020 at 4:38 PM, Dannyboy said:
kevy.....
I wrote a response weeks ago and by the time I was ready to submit it I lost it for reasons unknown. So just to paraphrase...... The methods of contacting Mistresses then were either through magazines or publications like Screw. No world-wide web. Dungeons were few and far between. Some Mistresses sessioned in their own rooms or apartments. Others worked in houses of prostitution and did S & M as a specialty. Sexual contact of one kind or another was frequently available and expected. It was after Guiliani became Mayor and decided to clean up Times Square and the city that S & M providers, acting out of self-preservation, began to distinguish their services as different from prostitution and eliminated many activities formerly common. Also in the earlier days there were no real standards in the practice of S & M. Some subs would have horrible experiences from some Mistresses and would exit the scene because of them. There evolved some consistency in the S & M industry and the concept of Safe, Sane and Consensual was commonly adopted. The creation of the Fortress brought to fruition a higher level concept in S & M. It was Jessy's dream when I first met her and her greatness is forever etched in the annals of the scene.
As to anxiety, we all have it. Some more, some less. We never know if our fantasies will be matched by reality. Most of us take that step anyway.
Dannyboy
That's really interesting, thanks. I wish Elliott Spitzer with the whole scandal he had would have just owned it and been like "Yeah I do it and I enjoy it and I'll continue to do it." And then UN-cleaned up Times Square that Guilliani previously cleaned up and made NY once again a breeding ground of debauchery and sin. Would have been cool if he'd done that. But I'm not surprised he didn't and I guess people by and large don't like that probably
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40 minutes ago, Doughboy said:
Pillsbury Doughboy session coming one of these days depending on various factors...
Yes do us proud man yes
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21 hours ago, Mistress Alexia Zito said:
Have you been putting yourself in mental chastity lately?
Sort of but not for any kind of fantasy but only because I've been working at a new job and I'm waking up earlier so sometimes I don't have enough time to jerk off in the shower in the morning. And by the time I get home I'm usually too tired to jerk off so that's it; I missed the boat on jerking off. I'm probably jerking off once every day or 2 on average now, down from my regular schedule of once a day no exceptions. Sometimes I'm even getting to 3 or 4 days which is absolutely insane. But I also haven't been watching porn at all (3 weeks today) so that makes it a bit easier to not lose my goddamn mind with horniness
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6 hours ago, Mistress Alexia Zito said:
It was to practice for one, no releases for a week (but no chastity on)
Mental chastity is much more realistically doable
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What was the assignment chastity or something else?
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Serious question but what's the difference exactly? Is forced fem more you feel like a girl and it's cathartic to experience wearing female clothes etc. while sissy play more about the humiliation of being made to wear female clothes etc.?
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14 hours ago, GDH94 said:
That's interesting. Is there any particular reason that those sessions you weren't anxious prior to happened to be your least favorite sessions?
It's the easiest thing in the world to just session without fear at all because you've got your safeword handy and you're just going to sit back and enjoy the experience... but I think that's an incredible ugly and shallow way to session. So if I approach sessions more thinking about how I'm going to work to try to be a good sub (which I'm terrible at) and actually please a mistress or mistresses, then I get anxious because I know I'll fall way short. But at least I'm trying and if they see that then maybe, just maybe, the session can actually be worth something. If I think of a session as something I'm just getting (which I think is so ugly it's unbelievable), it's not worth a fraction as much as it can be if I actually try to contribute whatever I can from myself to the session. Maybe everything I'm saying is obvious and this is actually a unique problem that only I've run into because I'm a lazy, useless, selfish, asshole - but yeah that kind of mindset has been a big difference between my favorite and my least favorite sessions.
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8 hours ago, Dannyboy said:
Dear Ms. Ang:
The world has changed a few times over since I was a beginner. The world of professional domination has changed along with myriad relevant factors and components of that scene so that my beginning so many years ago has little or nothing in common with another's beginning today. I often give advice to beginners on these Forums but that advice is based on today's norms. If I had it all to do over again I would have wanted to focus on becoming so wealthy that whatever I wanted would seek me instead of the other way around. No matter, I have memories that could fill a small encyclopedia and even if I couldn't change a thing I would rather be me than anyone else.
Dannyboy
What have you seen change over time in professional domination? I feel like chastity has become much more popular in just the last few years but I'm not sure if I've noticed anything else so specific or obvious. So glad at the rise of chastity (at least in my perception) though because chastity is the best (and worst obviously).
Anyway for advice I would just address the anxiety before sessions and say that I'm always anxious before sessions pretty much. The few times I wasn't that anxious before sessions were in some ways my least favorite sessions. You're supposed to be anxious. If there are things that should cause anxiety in a normal person, going to a dominatrix should certainly be one of them. And you'll learn that you can trust a mistress and then the anxiety won't be so unhealthy in the future and it will just be excitement moreso. That takes time though. I generally feel safer now at Fortress than anywhere else in the world honestly, and that definitely wasn't true at the beginning for me. Whenever I session with Mistress Zito now especially I feel so safe it's unbelievable. Anyway this post is too long but just dive in yeah. See how it goes.
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I also only had 1 session this last year, and it was alright. My fault - I was trying to do a chastity denial type thing and it would've been much better if I hadn't been watching copious amounts of porn every single day for the week leading up to the session. I was literally basically waking up and watching porn until I went to sleep every single day for the entire week leading up to the session. I thought it would make me more desperate but no it just makes you feel shitty and not be able to interact with another person at all. Anyway fuck porn and the way to do that kind of chastity tease definitely isn't like that. If you're going to wear chastity for a week or whatever leading into a session, fine, hot even, but porn will ruin it. You should be anticipating the mistress and that's about imo. Anyway you learn what doesn't work, at least, from the sessions that aren't as great, and know what not to do in the future. So it's a lesson at least.
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In 2020 if at all possible I'm going to try to be less of a useless lazy stupid asshole. It's not worth much I don't think and it seems really hard and I don't think I'm smart enough to do it and I don't care much if I succeed, but I'm going to give it my best shot (or at least a shot).
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I don't have more sophisticated tastes and while the entire body is beautiful there are reasons why the panties and feet and legs ass breasts etc. are favorites to worship. So yeah those are high up on the rankings but lets also not rank things. Breasts smell the best though not sure why but they smell so good I think even though you'd think they just wouldn't smell. Very strange
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5 hours ago, Mistress Ivy Lovelace said:
Hmmm I wonder why that is ?
It's like being ballgagged over the internet. It's very frustrating
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Honestly I try to post but Mistress Kang stops me. I'm always trying though
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On 10/9/2019 at 7:00 AM, otaku said:
Aren't they just two sides of the same coin?
Yes
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23 hours ago, Mistress Vivienne Fang said:
Oh sure you can scream, doesn't mean we won't punish you for it
This is why I always suffer stoically in silence. I'm brave though so idk if this is useful advice to reccommend to other subs or if maybe I'm just really really brave idk
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18 hours ago, Mistress Von Dietz said:
Kubrick had a way of making you feel all sorts of pins & needles, wanting to crawl out of your skin, I love it!
Also, I love that every time I watch The Shining, I notice a few new things that I’d never taken in before.You should watch Room 237. If you're interested, it's a whole documentary on The Shining and the making of it and Kubrick and it's really interesting
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11 hours ago, Mistress Von Dietz said:
Beginning the 1st of October with Kubrick’s ‘The Shining’, whilst sipping a lovely mulled wine.
I remember watching that for the first time on Halloween actually, in high school with a friend. Such an amazing movie but the scariest part by far is how every time they cut to the black screen for the next day and the super intense horror movie music plays. That made me jump out of my seat every time. The screen cuts to black and the caption "Thursday" and I'm pissing my pants. Blood coming out of the elevator is less scary than those cuts.
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4 hours ago, Zantafio said:
▲ Good point, porn sucks, but is easy to access, fast and discreet, a blessing for the family man.
Looking at the sites you mention, the first thing that comes to mind is: I had never seen so many white chicks, except at a Céline Dion concert. The few asian girls in BDSM seem to take the role of victims most of the time. I thought the asian mistress was a much more common fantasy.
I do not know if this happens to other subs here. What specifically turns me on feels so natural, obvious, normal to me that it is easy to imagine it turns on most guys around the world. There is no sexuality outside of my kink. Browsing porn sites illustrates how irrational that conception is. Most guys' kinks leave me indifferent, as mine surely leaves them. It feels a little lonely. Praise the Lord for this forum.
Mistresses of other genomes, please forgive my confessed inclination for Asia. Be not offended. Your talent, beauty and superiority to men are not in question.
I mean there's nothing wrong with being attracted to who you find attractive and what you find attractive. You shouldn't feel under any obligation to find people or things that you don't find attractive... attractive. I'll never understand why anal and incest are the top fetishes you see on any major porn site. They're like more popular than regular porn. Don't appeal to me at all
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On 8/30/2019 at 2:28 PM, Zantafio said:
▲ Oh, you know, mellow stuff. An asian girl overpowering a dude, followed by bondage, humiliation, tease & denial, foot worship or CBT. Nothing directly sexual. On Pornhub the pickings are slim for what I seek and the quality is embarrassing. Not sure whether it is allowed to discuss this here, but are there trustworthy sites dedicated to BDSM or asian ?
I don't know of anything that fits all of that. Maybe Divine Bitches or Femdom Empire for the bondage stuff. No idea about exclusively asian sites, sorry. Humiliation, foot worship, and cbt are in probably in the majority of femdom videos you'll find so those shouldn't be hard to find. Tease and denial is most often found (for me) in POV type humiliation videos - any of the girls on Iwantclips and those types of websites, Cruelgirlfriend and Humiliatrix and CumCountdown are other sites with that type of stuff. No idea why bondage is so rare in femdom videos. Hey fuck porn though man it's not good
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3 hours ago, Zantafio said:
One thing: post-orgasm torture, thanks to a topic here a few years ago. I have not tried it yet though, because, although it looks absolutely hot, I know how bitterly I would regret it.
Apart from that, I know well what makes me tick so I do not find new ideas, rather I seek scenes depicting my fantasies. Alas, although those fantasies are fairly middle-of-the-road, it is next to impossible to find a good video. Most are such crap. Suspension of disbelief to that level I cannot achieve. I mean, the guy is not even tied up, for hell's sake ! And then there is the futility of search by keywords. Whatver algorithm they use, they got swindled. Perhaps I am using the wrong sites.
What kind of fantasies do you like to see? I'm good at watching femdom porn so maybe I can help
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Ahoy there matey!! Welcome to the crew - Captain Kevybaby, at your service. You email these fine mistresses at booking and you schedule a session with one or more of them. They can give you more details when you do. Ya'd best be takin' my warning though, lad, ta walk the gangplank is a daaangerous business, and you'd best be havin' your wits about yeh. But if ya DO decide to walk the plank and ya MAKE it out alive - well, there's a buried treasure there that'll last ya the rest ah your life. Arrrrrrrr!
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6 hours ago, ctyankeex2 said:
Listen to your cardiologist first. Three months out of a heart attack, it is safer than your own judgement.
Did you have a heart attack at a domme
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I don't like them at all
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yeah I gotta be better morally or whatever I guess