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🤩🤩🤩 Show me with whips and bruises the magnitude of suffering you truly enjoy. I want to feel your appetite for sadism and bathe in the euphoria of pain. If anyone else is curious, ask me and I'll report back how it goes 😆

I am worthy. I am the sweet fruit of temptation. I am pit of euphoria in which you ascend. Hahaha See you soon!

Intense and crying... sounds like fun! Torturing someone with needles to make a picture of angel wings is quite the symbolic statement indeed.

Lady in Charge was a fun read. The letter in the comic was hilarious, especially the reply. I know the picture has the man with a look of fear on his face, but I picture it more like the Futurama episode where the men of the cast are sentenced to die via sex with a planet full of amazon-like women, i.e. "death by snu-snu". Pic related.

I like unpredictability in sessions. Trying new things is half the fun, so in my case I'm waiting in anticipation for the twist. Two experiences come to mind - -The first time I had a session using plastic wrap. Up until this point, I'd always used restraints like cuffs, rope, or tape, which while secure enough to restrain appendages, you always had a degree of freedom, even if it was just to flail helplessly. I remember seeing the plastic wrap and thought, "what? how could that possibly be strong enough to restrain anyone?" only to later find myself fully immobilized in plastic wrap, unable to move at all, even a fraction of an inch. It made the beating I received afterwards much more intense - turns out all that flailing helps to psychologically deal with the pain. Being nearly fully immobilized made it much worse. I think the best I could do was to wiggle my toes. -This one was a bit of an accident. During the same session, I was standing upright to be wrapped in the plastic wrap. When the Mistress had finished, she ordered me to lay on my belly. I couldn't move at all, and I think she noticed it, so after a bit of berating me while I try helplessly to bend down, she realizes I can't really do it and attempts to help me. I'm blindfolded, so I can't see her. As she attempts to lower me to the ground, I unceremoniously lose my balance and fall hard onto the floor. I hit the back of my head hard enough to see stars for a few seconds (but otherwise ok) and also hear a very large crashing sound - she clearly fell down right with me as well. This broke my subspace a bit, as she switched out of her dominant role into a caring role for a moment to ensure I was actually ok. I really appreciated this at the time and later afterwards upon reflection. It was a good reminder we're engaged in play and not abuse. After I stated clearly that I was ok from the fall and she checked that I was ok (no bleeding/serious injury) she shifted back into her dominant role, and I was able to finish the scene. Obviously, she did not intend to slam my head onto the floor, but it was such a shock to me on many levels - physical, psychological, emotional, I found it to be memorable. It also reminds me that there is a fine line between play and abuse - if I fell down differently, I could have seriously injured my head. We adjusted how we play so that won't happen again. Being surprised in a session is usually the most fun part of the session, but it also feels like a treadmill. It's hard to be surprised by something twice, so I find myself thinking up newer and more elaborate scenarios to challenge myself.

I like all of those! On your list, two of them I do not have much experience - electro sounds (thoroughly enjoy electro-plugs) and needle play. -What's electro-sounding like, from your perspective and the sub's? -For needle play, how big of a mural are you trying to paint?

Mistress Dalisay: Your story reminded me of my own personal reasons for enjoying pain. I have a sadistic streak where I particularly enjoy watching the change in someone's eyes during pain when they might run emotionally from tolerance to defiance to fear to pleading. I've found that it mirrors my masochistic desires as well - I want to get to the a level of pain where I am in an emotional state of fear and pleading, but it isn't easy- it takes quite alot of pain to get there and I usually start in a state of defiance or tolerance as we warm up and the pain begins to build. I like many variations and intensities but I also like exploring new and interesting ways to experience pain as well! I like all the 'standard' methods and locations (caning, paddling, impact, electricity, wax; feet, legs, ass, balls) but I'm curious... What ways are your favorite ways to inflict pain? What are some ways to inflict pain you don't get the opportunity to try (or rarely get to try) that you want to do more of?

I would never play without a safe word. The important part of the safe word is the first part, "safe". It's intended to keep both you and the Domme safe in a complicated, emotional, and intense situation. In terms of humiliation and anxiety, I suppose the lack of a safe word is less important, but if you're doing intense pain play, a safe word is a must. With regards to pain, a safe word is a very important signal to the Domme that something is wrong. I like to say there's "good pain" and there's "bad pain" in a session, and a safe word is designed to prevent the bad pain, the kind that can result in serious injury. For example, I recall a session in which I was blindfolded, restrained, and standing. Somehow or another, I ended up falling over and hitting my head which hurt in a bad way. The mistress attempted to 'catch' me and she ended up falling too. After we both took a pause and I regained my composure, we continued once the pain in my head went away. Another such type of situation is with restraints - if you lose feeling in your limbs, say something and have the restraints adjusted. Yes, it disrupts the flow of a session, but it also prevents permanent injury. Let's say you want to be spanked very hard during a session and wish to push your limits of pain tolerance. Foolishly, you decide "I don't need a safe word! Keep spanking even if I ask you to stop!" and the Domme starts spanking away. But one of the strikes misses slightly and causes your knee to slam into the table you're secured to. You're in an unbearable, unexpected, unwanted type of pain, and you beg her to stop. How does she know to stop or keep going? If you want the sensation of fear, an approach is to be honest with yourself about what your limits are in detail - what don't you want to do, no matter what? what do you want to do? and, importantly, what do you want the Mistress to push you in? Some call this a "soft limit", and a good way to get the feeling of fear is to build up to it, feel yourself approach the limit, and let the Mistress push farther and farther. Since this is something known to both prior to the session, she'll be paying attention to how you react and the buildup serves to amplify your own internal feelings of dread. "Can I continue to endure? When will she stop?" Playing with endurance can really get fear going, "only 30 more seconds" or "10 more, let's do it!" can allow you to get that sensation without doing anything unsafe. For me, that approach works very well in a safe manner. I wonder how much I can take, and I try to obey and take more if the Mistress keeps going to her preferred stopping point. I always find that the Mistress will take me farther than I would have willingly gone, but not too far.

On the day of a session, I like to imagine what will happen. I'll re-read the emails I've sent requesting activities and think about them to help get excited for the session. As the session time gets near, I (like most here) end up showing up early, and end up taking a walk around the area. By this point, I am a mix of nervous and excited. The walk helps to burn up some of that excited nervous energy beforehand. I also grab a drink and a snack from the nearby coffee shop, one of my favorite places. Every time I'm there, I wonder if the employees know that some of their customers are waiting to session nearby and if they know what truly goes on just a short distance away. For me, this coffee shop was one of my favorite places before I ever visited the fortress, but this particular one is now bound up in my memory with a dual significance. Right before the session, I have to mentally calm myself and clear my mind. The closest feeling I can think of to describe it is that of a kid entering a toy store and told he can buy whatever he likes.

I think that it would be interesting to explore both a dominant and submissive role while in a female body. As for the other player, I am not entirely sure, but it might be fun to dominate male and female subs while in a female body, as well as submitting to both male and female dom(me)s as a female sub. As a man, I don't feel any interest in playing with other men, but I wonder if that mindset would carry over in this thought experiment. Would I have a desire to only dominate men as a dominant female? I would be interested to see how and in what ways my thinking shifts. I could compare and contrast how strap-on play as a dominant woman would feel as compared to what it's like doing it naturally as a man... that would be a very interesting thing to explore. Or, how would I feel as a physically smaller (but dominant) woman beating a physically larger (but submissive) man? In a session, I can lose myself and forget about my size and strength and mentally fall into a space as the 'weaker' one in the dynamic, but I wonder how it would feel on the other side of that. Ladies, in a session with a man who is much larger who submits, what does it feel like to bend him to your will? Is it more satisfying to bend a man to your will who is large and physically imposing as compared to another man?

Not dirty, definitely sexual, also degrading. Perfect for a BDSM context. Where would I want it? Only in my mouth. For me, the appeal is that it's very intimate and reinforces the D/s dynamic. To illustrate: Prior to play, the girl I was seeing made us each a cup of coffee. We sipped coffee and chatted for a bit, and then she sprung her D/s trap on me pushing me flat onto my back face up on the couch. After a number of activities, I mentioned that I was thirsty. "Do you want some coffee?" she asked me, in an innocent voice. Naively, I believed that I would sit up and she would hand me my cup to take a sip. As I attempted to sit up, nope, she shoved me back down, grabbed her cup, took a mouthful and very very slowly spit it into my mouth while making eye contact with the most evil grin ever. Now I want girls to spit in my mouth... 🫠

I won't make it easy. It will take some work to get me that far. On the other hand, the thought of being mentally fried, barely hanging on is exactly where I want to be in a session... I might have to make some personnel adjustments to my next session.

What a wonderful thing to say. That should be on your Players page!

As I have a preference for impact... Bastinado (caning the bottoms of the feet) is something I cannot resist nearly as well as impact anywhere else. Strike me anywhere else and it will take 2x the force to achieve the same level of pain as bastinado in my estimation. Nipple clamps - leave them on for an extended period of time. It hurts a bit at the beginning, then starts to dull, but after enough time, it hurts intensely. The worst (or best?) part is the fact that by this point, removing them does not in fact relieve the pain but increase it as blood flow re-enters the previously compressed tissue. Now, the nipples are 10x more sensitive and lightly flicking, squeezing, or rolling them is excruciating. However, this sensation quickly fades. To bring it all back, simply put them back on and start again... Evil sticks - I have not yet seen one at the Fortress (maybe this ends up causing them to be stocked! hahaha) but it has the 'bite' sensation of a whip while being relatively tiny and utterly simple to use by comparison. A whip can be unwieldy, requires space to swing it properly, tricky to aim, and required considerable practice to use effectively in a session to achieve the effect. An evil stick has none of these issues and produces an equal amount of stinging pain, if not more depending on the type of carbon fiber used. Very much worth a try if you like impact.

I don't know if it's an "appeal" for me, but the interesting part of it for me is that in my opinion, our clothing is our "armor" in social contexts, so-to-speak. Clothing conveys a message, especially in a BDSM dynamic. Sometimes clothes are social armor in an explicit sense, such as when people were T-shirts with logos or quotes. There's the message and the subtext. "I'm wearing this brand, and this brand is known for this feeling, so associate that feeling with me." Or maybe you're not wearing something so obvious, like a button-up collared shirt and slacks. However, this still sends a message. It could signal membership in a group, "I'm like all the other people in collared shirts and slacks" or it could convey a personal sense of style. In this realm of BDSM, the leather, latex, heels, stockings, etc. usually convey a message of dominance with a subtext of maximum female power, "Not only am I sexy, but I can use it to control you - submit!" Conversely, the lack of clothing to me feels like power stripped away (figuratively and literally). I have no armor, I have no defenses, I am naked. I am vulnerable. In a private BDSM session, maybe the nakedness serves a practical purpose - I am physically vulnerable to impact and other things. In a social setting, I'm mentally vulnerable - who is looking? are they judging me? are they laughing at me? what do they think of me? With clothes, we control how we appear in social settings, but without them we do not. In addition, it's likely heightened by the fact that everyone else is clothed. In such an exibitionist setting, for example, I am vulnerable and everyone else isn't, which can amplify a D/s power dynamic, I think.