"Newman!" lol
Glad you're enjoying the Guest Forum so far. I think you'll find the Devotee Forum less "tame". We do share your hard limits of permanent harm/damage, and death (hooray!).
I liked that you used "begging and whimpering" to describe what you're seeking. I think the difference in the titles (Mistress, Domina, Domme) boils down to semantics. You did a pretty good job of explaining your interests without them.
Couple questions for you- have you ever been caned? If so, how severely?