need to serve

It is most likely a bit of both. Addiction when I put up a boundary then cross it. Addiction when I give up other things for it. Passion when I find a really good connection with a Domme that compels me. Passion when the seduction is overwhelming.

I haven't been annoyed about it in some time. Probably because I haven't had any desire to quit in some time. The "addiction" would be bdsm. When I am not doing it, I am often thinking about it. I act on the addiction through both live scenes and media. I have "quit" for a time at a few different points in my life. Always come back to it.

Looking forward to meeting you!!!!

The old Batman series where Catwomen would have them captured, bound and prepped for demise. Subtle to a child. Not to a teen who did not understand the turn-on. Also, possibly more control than BDSM, Ginger seducing Gilligan so he would do her bidding. Both were awesome. As a kid, I was attracted. As a teen watching reruns, paper towels became necessary.

Thanks for posting the review. By all accounts Mistress Lovely seems to be very talented. Her prose posted on this site indicates that she is very well versed also.

Punishment that I do not deserve hits harder. As a submissive who strives to please and obey, undeserved punishment can be confusing and frustrating.

I think that sounds are underrated. I have heard that many either fear them or do not like them. I have found that in skilled hands they are a powerful, powerful of erotic pleasure and of torture. Piercings are underrated as well... One through the frenum can be both Heaven and Hell!! Overrated.....Trampling. Just not my bag. Can be clumsy and awkward.

I love the feeling of helplessness in the form of bondage or physical entrapment. The despair by that means is blissful, freeing, serene. It is where I want to be. To be caught in a predicament, such as rules, where there can be no outcome where I win the favor of Mistress is frustrating prior to the acceptance. I have a strong desire to please and not being able to find the path is frustrating. Upon acceptance of "no way out", I will calmly try to choose what I believe will be the least punitive path.

j is for Jiz eating.... can i get away with a j there?

J for JOI

H for Humbler

Hindsight being 20/20, I see behaviors in me dating back to first or second grade. I was attracted to a fifth grade girl who would come with a group into our class to read stories. She at times wore leather or faux leather pants and I was drawn to sit at her feet for story time. In childhood seek and capture games, I would always get caught by a pretty girl. As a teen I would pleasure myself when Catwoman was the villain on Batman or when Ginger seduced Gilligan to do her bidding. I realized it for real when I started seeing magazines. At 21 I had a paid session and am still in the game some 40 years later.

there are a couple of things that would fit this bill. One would be to have an extended session where the highlights amongst all the different aspects of play would be tease and denial pudhing past the point of ultra-sincere begging to tears.

It was years ago. I am trying to picture the tie. As I recall she put in a plug and tied a tight rope around the waist and she could pull a rope back and forth through the waist tie. One of the the more sophisticated bondage enthusiasts in the group might be able to visualize and explain how it could be done.

It was intense. Mistress had tied a tight plug inside. It was quite fitted and secured.

I am not certain whether it was the cruelest punishment or the most challenging predicament. This session's activities were a total surprise. There was no input on my part. I was once given a homemade enema that included chamomile for calming effect. Following the enema, I was plugged and secured tightly to a cross. I was informed that if I expelled the enema without permission, I would be cleaning up and then dismissed. While I was secured to the cross, Mistress began cbt that would escalate to piercings. With each poke, prod or pierce the urge to expel the enema would become more urgent. Mistress would allow a bit of time between tortures to allow the need to expel to somewhat subside. As I was nearing desperation, Mistress would put a piercing right through the corona ridge. I had never experienced that before. The pain and shock brought on desperation. By the fourth piercing of the corona ridge, the begging was sincere, the need to expel was totally desperate and fortunately she brought me down from the cross and brought me to the bathroom. This was a totally awesome session!

This is really tough to answer for me. I had a great few years, then a lull, the another great few years. All of these periods had great memories and many "firsts". So, 22-27 was great and then 32-37 was great. There was another period in my 40's that was great. The common thread was that they were in periods where I played exclusively with one domme. If I were forced to pick a decade, it would be 24-34. I was relatively new to the scene. Fell in with a great Pro-Domme who was an expert guide and driver.

Typically, I can be seduced to do just about anything. The verbal during the fact, "look at what a pig I have turned you into", "your desperation makes you totally enslaved to me"..."Look at how you have surrendered every bit of your power to me". The acts can be anything from spitting to pegging to sucking to .....

What is the hold up? Is it emotional, like a fear to walk into your kink because it may bring shame? Is it fear that you may get injured or damaged? Is it a fear that you may in some way be "outed"? Screw the fear. Walk through it, you will be fine. I have been there on all 3 of these counts and the reward has far, far outweighed my perceived risk. Fear skews my perception to an extreme. Let it go..