AioriaRegulus

Culturally speaking, I believe it’s warding off evil. Taoist i think

With sizing at L… 20D sheer to waist - one pair with lips parted… though I want to train my gag reflex to be able to close my lips over them. 30-40D deniers or sheers with control tops or gussets will depend on how it’s made, but generally I can fit one in if it’s packed like a chipmunk… takes some a little work though to make sure it’s packed on the cheeks and not back towards the airway. 50D and up is about half. Typically at that point I will get a control top and stuff my mouth with the control top and wrap the legs around my mouth multiple times to seal it in. The OTM look like that is exquisite if done right. As an aside- I can generally pack thigh highs with no stay-ups at a higher denier level given it inherently has less material than pantyhose of the same coverage level. Those I’ve done with lengths going out to XL depending on brand. Not a fan of stay-ups because the rubber can interfere with my tongue when I try to keep my airway clear… plus it’s weird taste that can trigger gag reflex if I’m not mentally zoned in 100% of the time.

What resonates for me has evolved over time… the biggest thing for me now is someone who really dives deep into the psychological and artistic intricacies of this craft. While it doesn’t have to be a lifestyle, the Domme who embraces it as an important part of their life and who deeply appreciates the sanctity and privilege of the power exchange in the Domme/sub relationship leaves the strongest impressions and receives my unwavering loyalty.

It was gradual until adulthood as I never knew an entire community existed until college. Up until then my curiosity slowly evolved from that initial cartoon scene to being curious what it would feel like to wear black nylons to actually trying things out on myself to understand the experience. Once I realized there was an entire community out there, I already had my own means as an adult… and so really dove in to explore. Thinking back, at the risk of sounding cliche, the motivation was as much the relief that I wasn’t alone with these interests as the physical payoff of it.

Self-bondage done right requires exquisite rope work though I could never get the hands and wrists quite right. Being commanded to gag and tie myself down in wait for my Mistress has always been an interesting level of submission to explore.

I have. Even have gear made especially for it.