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For me... from the choices you listed, the most humiliating would be being slapped in public. The second most humiliating thing for me would be being dressed up in front of a large group of women. I am just picking from what you listed because, with humiliation, the sky is the limit.

I just read this now. You're so right. Yesterday I was in the Purple Room with Mistress Rey and I sure did suffer! And although I was so scared and wanted to withdraw (which I couldn't because I asked for no safe words except for medical reasons), today I am so glad I suffered for her amusement. I'd definitely do it again soon. The Purple Room is nice. But I didn't focus that much on the elegance of the room, though. My focus was on the gorgeous Mistress Rey who had me in a state of submissive hypnosis mostly throughout the session. I loved it!

Yes, I am the same way. I like the experience to be immersive knowing that I have no escape and that I am my Lady Owner's mercy.

Thanks for sharing... that really is hot! I agree that's really good bondage. I think lots of dommes out there are just too lazy to do real bondage. I've been doing sessions for quite some time and it wasn't until my first session at the Fortress last year when I experienced real bondage by Mistresses Shankar and Li. They really used the rope to tie me up tightly and a ball gag. I felt scared as they took turns sitting on my face and torturing my balls. Bondage is perfect for all forms of torture because there's no way a slave can escape; I'm talking about inescapable bondage. I still have yet to experience corporal punishment (whipping, caning) WITH medium to heavy bondage of some sort. The Mistresses I've seen over the years keep wanting to flog, whip, and cane me without restraining me (and if they do, it's very little). I shouldn't be able to escape! ConsentOptional, I feel the same way about having one less thing to have to pretend.

Total submission. Complete surrender of power with only one goal that matters: your ecstasy.

I always fantasize about EXTREMELY HARDCORE humiliation/degradation/dehumanization/emasculation!!!! But I'm not sure what would break me. So far, nothing has broken me. Well, in the end, it is impossible to break me at this point in life because I no longer identify fully/completely with my personality or identity (ego). For someone who can transcend the ego at will, even for a while, humiliation is impossible to experience. But since I want this experience very much -- as a temporary vacation from what I call "the rest of my life" just for sake of having a specific experience without destroying desires to have other experiences in life -- I can do my best to "descend", for lack of a better word, into a typical male so I can undergo the experience of sadistically being stripped of my dignity. I just have to play 'pretend', but then again, we all do that all the time. I am not a fan of role-play type sessions but upon reflection, the Mistress/slave session is itself a role-play, and life is a grander role-play. And we play many, many of those as well. Most people are not zoomed out enough to see that. I don't know if the above makes any sense to the readers here. Sometimes I just let the words flow out naturally and well, it is what it is. LOL I like the word "igniting". It's very important for a domina (a sexier sounding word than domme) to know what ignites a sense of humiliation in a slave. Your interest in knowing the slave's mind, Mistress Shankar, is very important because without that, humiliation does not really happen. To answer your question, I must recall a session I had with a classy but vicious Mistress a few years back. She humiliated me in a casually sadistic way. That's what works for me, not cliches much. Humiliation that is casually sadistic stings badly. During this session, she figured out that I was still a virgin so she mockingly asked me, "Did you ever have sex?" and this question was both mocking and seductive at the same time. I said, "No, Mistress." And I actually felt humiliated. Or constant verbal degradation even during regular correspondence such as emails or text messages. Basically, someone who really enjoys treating me like shit. And even being unfair (to a limit) with me... like giving me a nearly impossible command to follow and then punishing me for "disobeying", or changing her mind and telling me she didn't actually want that, only to degrade me further. Public humiliation is probably the most humiliating experience I can get stung by, but even this might be difficult because these days, I don't generally care about anyone's judgment! It's ironic for a person who once was pathologically shy for at least 15 years! It can still work, if done right. But what is "right"? It's subjective as usual. I don't know if I actually answered your question or just rambled stuff that my mind wanted to express using my fingers typing on the keyboard, LOL. But anyway, here's my fantasy if anyone cares to know. All of the below COMBINED can possibly break me for several hours or even days: Forced Intox -- getting drunk (just beer or something though, no hard liquor) Tight Bondage -- total helplessness Extreme and prolonged Teasing and Denial Deep Hypnosis -- to make me vulnerable to suggestions Deep Mind Fuck -- to program me as you wish Torture -- to break me physically (breaking me physically, btw, is VERY easy -- I suck at taking pain even though I crave a lot of it) Stinging Verbal Humiliation -- privately while bound and being mind fucked, as well as during public outings (combination of shouting, normal voice, and whispering) Cuckolding -- having another male, an alpha compared to me -- can add to the degradation (but only if SHE is still ultimately controlling everything) Physical Humiliation -- to add to all of the above Medium to long term chastity on top of the above can render me very horny and desperate. In fact, on Nov. 6th, I decided that I have no right to masturbate without a dominant woman's permission. So today is my 67th day in chastity. I'm beginning to love chastity even though it's sexually frustrating. I don't have a device on nor a female owner to lock me up and keep the keys yet. But it's still relatively fun. Anyway, I just wanted to express myself since I am into so many D/s activities. I hope this response was more helpful than annoying rambling. Only you guys and gals can be the judge of that.

Same here, pdink23. I look forward to serving Mistress Shankar again but would also like to serve Mistress Von Dietz, possibly a double-domina session.

To be more specific... some of my goals are: To be able to take more pain. I want to reach a point where I can take a heavy beating with marks all over my body. Eventually, I want to be able to take a vicious bloody beating but that's not a goal for 2018, maybe later. Haha... One step at a time. To be a much better sissy. This includes as much feminization I can undergo while still being able to go home looking "normal". So except for shaving my legs or something like that, maximum feminization possible followed by intense whore training to eventually be pimped out to suck real cock, to amuse my Mistress and even make her money. To be a better humiliation slut and cuckold. I mean, hardcore sadistic humiliation and degradation with tasks difficult for me to carry out but still being forced to do them. Public humiliation, for sure! To take an adequate level of ball busting. I do fantasize extreme ball busting but although that's a nice fantasy, I don't want to permanently lose my balls. That's no fun. To finally brave the experience of being a full toilet of my Mistress. Medium to long term chastity locked up while Mistress holds the keys and controls my sexuality. Medium to long term financial domination while Mistress takes money from me and controls my finances. Numbers 6 and 7 above are not realistic given the rest of my life but maybe something short term can work out. I said "medium to long term" out of my fantasy mouth (or fantasy fingers, since I am typing this message). LOL

Great question, Mistress Shankar. By the way, it was so much fun to serve both you and Mistress Li back in August. It's been a while. I look forward to serving you soon. I believe 2018 is the year I'll be launching into orbit, so to speak, so there are lots of goals to accomplish this year in order to setup the foundation for 2019 and beyond. I won't even go there, though, at this point. As far as Femdom, I dream big, and sincerely desire to explore serving many dominas (I prefer the word "domina" instead of domme because it sounds sexier to me) both locally in the NYC/NJ/Philly areas as well as international. Feel free to call me crazy, but I am willing to travel to any safe part of the world just to session with a domina whom I feel is worth the trip. Of course, those sessions must be at least a few days/nights long but my ideal goal is 1-2 weeks serving one domina, or a group of dominas if that can be arranged, at a time. For dominas closer to me, short hourly sessions are great but more is always better, always! I have had intense fantasies for YEARS and I want to fulfill some of them this year, at least. I know it realistically takes time to build up the art of being a good submissive and so I am hoping for regular, strict training in all areas -- mostly everything, ranging from corporal punishment, sissy slut training, public humiliation, financial domination, toilet slavery, cuckolding,... you name it. I do have hard limits but very few. I also need to balance my Femdom life with the rest of my life. I do not consider myself a slave, strictly speaking, but rather a submissive who likes to play the role of slave part-time. Even 2-week long sessions would end and then back to other things for a while until next time. Because of my desire for variety, I cannot commit to serving one domina, but rather prefer to experience serving a lot of dominas. Therefore, I prefer professional dominas over lifestyle -- unless the lifestyle domina is willing to offer part-time slavery options. Before I end this post, I wanted to mention that my Mistress' ecstasy means a lot to me. What are the dominas fantasizing? Wha do YOU ladies want to do? I think there should be more focus on the Lady's desires. If you could do anything you want with me (keeping in mind that I do have a non-Femdom life as well), what would that be? That's the main answer to this question. I want to please you in most of those ways to the best of my ability.

Nothing is totally secret, with or without Google. Higher dimensional entities can see everything we're doing. Check out Dr. Quantum talking to an imaginary 2-dimensional woman: http://bit.ly/2io6Ul5 We're just like that, but in a 3-dimensional world. But there are more levels up, many. I don't care who's watching. I am not afraid of judgment.

I'm not into racial play, but I LOVE the idea of session surprises and always welcome surprises that would amuse the Mistress/Mistresses to no end!

All of your fantasies sound extremely sexy to me! Thanks for the ideas.

Now this sounds like fun! I look forward to this someday soon.

If only I had the privacy at home, I'd let my Mistress totally transform me into a sissy slut whore. I'd of course learn the cat walk and I'm already quite good at moaning. But during a session, I can be the best sissy I can before I return home in my original male format.

If I had the privacy at home, I'd allow my Mistress to do this kind of thing to me. I love the sound of it!

As someone who craves to be a sissy slut, this sounds so sexy and exciting!

I love the idea of branding, but not into anything permanent. It's okay if it goes away or can be taken off after some time, like a few weeks.