AioriaRegulus

Mistress’ wishes would be this sissy’s command.

Well done as expected from ladies of the Fortress. This game is a perfectionist's worst nightmare.

My fantasy is to be a festively dressed sissy working as server, bartender or any other role at a holiday party thrown for the Mistresses of the Fortress and their friends. In addition to regular duties, I’d have to be subject to any random acts and things as any Mistress desires… it would be a night where they can cater to any pleasure they like with no boundaries

I hope so! With that said, it’s still a luxury… I don’t often have that opportunity. That’s why I enjoy my time at the Fortress so much. These fears get checked at the door as it’s unnecessary in there.

With my previous response said, it would likely need to be worked up to such a fun scene, as I feel there needs to be trust and mutual understanding that can only be built up from previous sessions. But these types of extreme scenes of natural exploration are frankly what I’ve come to understand that I yearn for… which brings me back to why this is so surprising to me…

That absolutely works for me as that is a natural exploration of limits and boundaries. I actually love those types of scenes because it can expand my boundaries and limits, showing me things about myself I wasn't aware of before… that and there’s just simply a thrill to the anticipation of what my mistress has in mind, and wondering how much pleasure I can provide her as she pushes me to my limits.

Super exhausting! Didn’t realize how bad it was until I grew aware of it. … and this is like well into adulthood I try not to imagine all the times it’s held me back as I’d probably just spiral into regret but I do marvel at how much better things have become when I don’t hide the fact that I too can make mistakes. I guess folks appreciate authenticity (who knew?! 😆)

I think it would be failure as that would mean there was such a misalignment in the line of communication between my mistress and me so as to the scene has to be artificially adjusted. With that said, I don’t view failure as a bad thing. Like other forms of expression and art, the domme/sub dynamic gets better with repeated engagements (the adage of “practice makes progress”). It gets better like wine… I as a sub will better understand what in-scene cues (hopefully unspoken as I would be heavily gagged by then…) to use that would resonate best with my mistress as well as her boundaries and desires, which will enable me to be the best sub for her pleasure. At the same time my mistress gains a better understanding of my boundaries and when/how/if to push them to maximize pleasure for both of us. With time and repeated engagements, trust and understanding should build between both leading to what I think is the inevitable “successful” scenes where no safe word need be used.

I have a fear of people knowing if I’m wrong or I made a mistake. It may sound innocuous, but it’s an awful fear that I grapple with every day. I suspect it came from childhood and inadvertent conditioning from my parents. It can be disruptive and even corrosive on both a personal and professional level. And there is simply too much impact in my day-to-day life to leave this fear unchecked. I’ve had to be very intentional and consistently remind myself that it’s human to make mistakes, and give myself some grace. I’ve also had to convince myself that people will equally give you grace and it’s not the end of the world. Constant work-in-progress.