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Congratulations!

Gradually. I only started really exploring kink about ten years ago, but there had always been fantasies there. So, I kept trying things and kind of checking off possibilities. Foot fetish? No - I kind of like feet, but don't love them. Tickling? Not really ticklish. Feminization/sissy: No, does nothing for me, though it can be kind of funny, so fine to have a bit of that. Pain? No. I like some pain from a sensation point of view, and I like the drained feeling after when it's more intense, but it's the power exchange part/submission part I find really exciting. I like inflicting pain too, again largely as power exchange - I'm neither a real masochist, nor a real sadist. I found that I don't enjoy sessions that are totally pain-focused; it never converts directly into pleasure for me. Bondage? Kind of. Bondage had always been part of my fantasies and I love bondage. But again, a large part of that is the power exchange - have to submit to it. I do also like the feel of bondage; I find it comforting, like the comfort a swaddled baby feels. But I just did a session with M. Dalisay and M. Matira, which I described on the private board, and there was no bondage in it and I didn't even really notice that until it was over. And it was a great session. Verbal abuse? Not really. SPH does nothing for me, nor any of the "loser" stuff, but it doesn't bother me either. I like some verbal abuse in the context of role play and I do enjoy a good threat or bullying, but again, that's power exchange. Body worship? No. I like being "forced" to, say, worship feet in a session, because that's part of the power exchange. But it's not a reward for me. I don't worship a Mistress, I obey her. I'm not sure I could refer to a Mistress as "goddess" and keep a straight face. Though a role play where the Mistress is a literal goddess sounds like a fun idea. I've tried things I don't expect to like and have liked them, but none of the have to be in a session for me to have a good time and again, it's pretty much the power exchange, or the sensory experience parts I enjoy. Objectification? Sort of. I really enjoy objectification, but I think of it as an extreme form of power exchange. If I'm just an object, I have no will, no volition and 100% of the power rests with the Mistress. I know that my lack of specific fetishes has left some Mistresses frustrated. On the other hand, the fact that I like so many things means that I enjoy a whole lot of different kinds of sessions, so typically a Mistress doesn't really need to "get" me for me to have a good time.

I saw this question yesterday and have been thinking about it, because I found it interesting. For me, I've learned a few things, but not a lot of deep insights. I've learned just how novelty-seeking I am, which turns out to be a lot, like really a lot. I've learned that my only real fetish is power exchange. I've always thought of myself as good in a crisis and my scenes have reinforced that opinion. I've never freaked out (though I've safeworded out exactly twice), I've never said no to anything, (maybe once, but I think she was joking and she didn't make it a command), I always stay (relatively) calm, just a bit nervous, always, which is good, and I've been frightened only once.

Oooh, ooh, me too. For my fantasy it's important that they just come into the locker room from playing a game.

Not so much being in charge, but being independent. I only like being in charge of very small teams, for example, where it's more like cooperation. And believe me, my most important kink is being 100% not in charge.

Ah, well I wouldn't categorize my attitude toward stagnation and mediocrity as "fear." I do hate it in myself, in a very serious and non-adaptive way but that's different. Whereas for what other people think of me, that can be directly anxiety-producing for me.

I used to have a real fear of heights and still do in the sense that I can always feel the fear there, but I can always contain it. A whole lot of hiking got me over it. When the path isn't wide enough for two feet beside each other and it's 100m down, one needs to deal. My worst fear would be worrying about what people think of me, though it's very much contextual. I love public speaking, for example, but I'm extremely reticent of asking for help.

Cruel? That's just fun. I'm thinking M. Hadid making me eat all that horrible icing when I did the food play session with her and MVD might have been the cruelest. I would have adjusted my shopping list had I known that was coming.

I only visited the old Sammy's once, and loved it, but felt once was enough for me. I go for at least 2 or 3 tries for most BDSM things.

Not chicken, squab. Zha Ru Ge, 炸乳鸽

I'm out of the country, so I'm not cooking. But this was part of yesterday's lunch:

Yes, working up is how it's been the limit on ball-impact has generally been dealt with. I find it kind of annoying that it is a limit for me, but it works the same way for me as for Jawz - too much takes me right out of the session and I just want it to end. But it's no fun to make it totally off-limits. As for the new hard limit: rape play. It wasn't a limit before, because it never came up. But a partner wanted to play that way, so I went along, as I don't have a conceptual problem when consent is 100% clear. Never doing that again.

No. But partly because my list of hard limits is so short. I moved impact to the balls from not-a-limit to, I don't know whether to call it a hard limit or a soft limit. Real ballbusting is a hard limit, but where exactly is that boundary? Hard to say. And I recently found a new hard limit for when I'm topping, but that's not relevant to the Fortress.

All of the mistresses know how to handle newbies. And like Mr. Mule, I'm still nervous at the start of every session, having gone to the Fortress for nine years. I know of no other place that has the kind of quality control the Fortress does. Or the safety-consciousness. The Fortress was my start as a sub (had done doming before) and it was an amazing introduction.

Congratulations! I didn't realize you were so new the first time I met you. I'm going to go ahead and guess the viciousness is innate.

I will give up one without "persuasion." I've more than once considered the request, "make me cry." And I don't mean just those involuntary tears from getting things shoved down my throat, I mean real crying.

Never. The Fortress is, above all else, professional. There is no need to be embarrassed. They have seen a lot. There are a couple of things I've been afraid to ask for, but that's very different.

Just a thought - "Unethical personal trainer" is a super-fun role play.

Water sports, though, hard call. Punching and kicking or implements?

Why do you need a karaoke mic when you already have the mic that connects to the tens unit?

The best part is that it's actually a good song.

Oh, now I think you need to go see M. Hadid. Believe me, she will set you straight. Unless that's just a strategy to make her mad at you, in which case, clever.

Ha! I'd like to see M. Hadid vs. Taylor Swift. I know how that would go, but I'd love to watch.