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I hope so! With that said, it’s still a luxury… I don’t often have that opportunity. That’s why I enjoy my time at the Fortress so much. These fears get checked at the door as it’s unnecessary in there.

With my previous response said, it would likely need to be worked up to such a fun scene, as I feel there needs to be trust and mutual understanding that can only be built up from previous sessions. But these types of extreme scenes of natural exploration are frankly what I’ve come to understand that I yearn for… which brings me back to why this is so surprising to me…

That absolutely works for me as that is a natural exploration of limits and boundaries. I actually love those types of scenes because it can expand my boundaries and limits, showing me things about myself I wasn't aware of before… that and there’s just simply a thrill to the anticipation of what my mistress has in mind, and wondering how much pleasure I can provide her as she pushes me to my limits.

Super exhausting! Didn’t realize how bad it was until I grew aware of it. … and this is like well into adulthood I try not to imagine all the times it’s held me back as I’d probably just spiral into regret but I do marvel at how much better things have become when I don’t hide the fact that I too can make mistakes. I guess folks appreciate authenticity (who knew?! 😆)

I think it would be failure as that would mean there was such a misalignment in the line of communication between my mistress and me so as to the scene has to be artificially adjusted. With that said, I don’t view failure as a bad thing. Like other forms of expression and art, the domme/sub dynamic gets better with repeated engagements (the adage of “practice makes progress”). It gets better like wine… I as a sub will better understand what in-scene cues (hopefully unspoken as I would be heavily gagged by then…) to use that would resonate best with my mistress as well as her boundaries and desires, which will enable me to be the best sub for her pleasure. At the same time my mistress gains a better understanding of my boundaries and when/how/if to push them to maximize pleasure for both of us. With time and repeated engagements, trust and understanding should build between both leading to what I think is the inevitable “successful” scenes where no safe word need be used.

I have a fear of people knowing if I’m wrong or I made a mistake. It may sound innocuous, but it’s an awful fear that I grapple with every day. I suspect it came from childhood and inadvertent conditioning from my parents. It can be disruptive and even corrosive on both a personal and professional level. And there is simply too much impact in my day-to-day life to leave this fear unchecked. I’ve had to be very intentional and consistently remind myself that it’s human to make mistakes, and give myself some grace. I’ve also had to convince myself that people will equally give you grace and it’s not the end of the world. Constant work-in-progress.

This may sound hokey but I think the personal goal is my mistress’s delight. The pleasure of my mistress is intrinsically pleasure for me. And I wouldn’t actually characterize it as “enduring”. It’s more like “savoring”… specifically my mistress’s pleasure which is wrought from the extreme scene. And it is this desire for this confluence of seemingly contradictory things that is such surprise and something I haven’t previously known about myself…

This may sound hokey but I think the personal goal is my mistress’s delight. The pleasure of my mistress is intrinsically pleasure for me. And I wouldn’t actually characterize it as “enduring”. It’s more like “savoring”… specifically my mistress’s pleasure which is wrought from the extreme scene. And it is this desire for this confluence of seemingly contradictory things that is such surprise and something I haven’t previously known about myself…

A very specific office fantasy: I fantasize about having an ambitious member of my team whom I am mentoring to perform at a high level for future advancement in a high pressure environment… who requires that guidance to nurture her professional growth and help her navigate through otherwise perilous office culture… But when work is done and we leave the office… our roles transform… she into a demanding but caring of domme… me into compliant submissive who is game for anything she desires. We play throughout the night… the activities and direction of the scene wholly spontaneous based on feeling and understanding… she finds release in using him as his plaything in whatever way her whims take her… bondage… pegging… spanking…. Wax play… gagging…. Breatheplay… face sitting…. and when morning breaks… we have aftercare in the form of a nice cup of coffee and warm breakfast, before heading out for the office again.

I’ve found out recently that the strongest of my desires in a successful extreme scene (which I define as no safe words needing to be used) is to please my mistress. That desire to please naturally creates (what i assume to be) endorphins, which creates the nexus between pain and pleasure.

I decided to give myself a holiday treat and did a solo session with Mistress Lovely. Ever since I spent an hour with her in a prior double domme session last quarter, I was stricken with curiosity about her. I knew this curiosity could only satiated by submitting to her in a dedicated session. It is clear she has a true appreciation of the dynamics between domme and sub. I was nervous when the session started – while I had previously interacted with her in a prior session, this was going to be 2 hours that I was going to submit to Mistress Lovely’s will. It didn’t take long for her to put me at ease and allowed me to trust her. Her beautiful smile, and silky voice effortlessly took stock of my limits. What followed next was a wonderful session curated to her desires and showing me new experiences that words cannot do justice. I will not go into all the details of the wonderful session we had. Suffice to say though, that it was one of the best experiences I’ve ever had as a sub. I found myself delighting in pleasing Mistress Lovely. To see her enjoying our session became the end-game… the goal in all the predicaments I was put in. But it was a natural goal… an easy one… one that was achievable by simply letting go and surrendering control… trusting that she will take the me to places that were well within my boundaries… even if I didn’t know it at first. Mistress Lovely is a wonderful player who is next level in the art of domination. This sub looks forward to playing with her again if she will have me in the not-to-distant future.

I had my quarterly session at FF last week to close out May 2025. This was a special session as it marks 1 year since I've been coming to play with the ladies of the Fortress. This particular session was definitely special as it had a couple of firsts. It was the first time I was in a room other than the Pink Room (I literally had to do a double take when asked to go the Purple Room )... and it was the first time I did a session solely with one Mistress. I've only done double domination sessions before so I wasn't sure what to expect with a 1-on-1 session with Mistress Ito. It certainly was a different type of session, but no less fun. It was masterfully done by Mistress Ito. The session was wonderfully paced with great communication between domme and sub. Having previously the pleasure of playing with Mistress Ito, I trusted her as my domme to exert her will while knowing what I would enjoy or would be willing to try. The result was that she expanded my pervious limits of play. Her ropework is an absolute work of art. It is masterful and tasteful, incorporating original artform with strict bondage and (extremely) limiting movement. It was an absolute pleasure to be her bound subject. The tightness made the struggle against the ropes euphoric. As expected, Mistress Ito also delivered great psychological play causing me to have feelings of helplessness mixed in with just the right amount of fear (i.e. of the unknown), which resulted in a wonderful experience. It was a great session and I look forward to returning and seeing what Mistress Ito has in store for this sub.

Yes Mistress please!

Ummmm… is it too much if this sub humbly asks to lose more than one sense..? 🙊

🫢 Are there arm sleeves to prevent the sub from doing naughty things without permission….?

Summer turns to Fall and as with every change of the seasons now, that meant it was time for another session with Mistress Feng and and Mistress Koi. This is my favorite form of self-care - escaping the responsibilities and weight of making decisions and submit to the whims and decisions of these two talented Mistresses. It was my third session with them, and by now we are beginning to understand each other better as dommes and sub. We let the scenes play out as my Mistresses desired taking into account things that I found worked particularly well from prior sessions. It was another decadent cornucopia of new experiences and elevating previous forms of play. From little games like "How much tighter can we make this?" to all the fun and "rousing" taunts the Mistresses had at my expense because I couldn't see (or rather they wouldn't let me see....) to enjoying the heightened sense of touch when my mobility and sense of sight are both taken away (much to my chargin )... it was a great thrill ride. What makes Mistress Feng and Mistress Koi first class dommes that dominate in a first class way is that they not only create mutually enjoyable sessions, but they also effortlessly maintain a safe environment for the sub without detracting from the session. There were multiple times where they were able to subtly slip in safety checks like making sure there were no issues breathing and the state of play was still within my limits. They did it so naturally that I felt absolutely safe in even the most restrictive predicaments... and there were quite a few tight (and silencing) ones!!! This is important as that feeling of safety allowed me to focus on enjoying the moment and trusting my Mistresses decisions. As always, the time was too short... but I'll definitely be back when Fall turns to Winter to try the new things we talked about!!! PS to Mistress Feng and Mistress Koi: This sub will make sure he is more stretched by the time he returns... 🙄

Wonderful. Welcome Mistress Ito

Yes! Absolutely