JustAGuy

Sorry HMK, but as awesome as She was (and She WAS awesome), I gotta give mad props to the poor civil servant who had to respond and just calmly said, "Thank you, and Happy Holidays to you."

Last weekend I travelled to NYC for what turned out to be one of the most incredible overall sessions I've ever had! (A little background you can skip if desired - I had a pretty bad health scare a few years ago and was feeling ready to session around that December. Since then, every year I have tried to come do a big D&D in December. Every year has had different combinations but the two constants have been my blonde Goddesses Headmistress Kang and Mistress Von Dietz). In the planning phase, I initially reached out about doing a D&D with Headmistress Kang, Mistress Von Dietz, and a third. I say "a third" because that kept changing, different Mistresses were unavailable, things happened, etc. But along the way, HMK announced that Mistress Aria Song was available for training! I hastily added some time to be used in her training, and then to my delight I learned Mistress Eva Koi would be available to to join dinner! So the session started with HMK, MVD, and Mistress Song. Knowing my interests from past sessions, HMK and Mistress Song were dressed in Japanese schoolgirl attire. I love seeing Jessy that way but Mistress Song was a new experience...she was adorable but demanding in a little blue skirt and white sailor suit with these adorable shoes! I didn't get much opportunity to kiss them however because MVD was wearing more traditional black Domme attire, including shiny black boots that I was commanded to lick clean. Quick aside on MVD, who is sort of like what Marilyn Monroe would be if she got excited by inflicting physical and psychological destruction on puny males. I believe she really does like the nickname "MVD!" Her official Domina name is "Mistress Helena Von Dietz" but we were joking one time about how "MHVD" doesn't work as well as "MVD" and she declared that "MVD" is more on-brand. Well, it made me laugh, anyway. If memory serves she was saying it while pouring hot wax on my thighs in a prior session. Anyway, I have to be careful in describing the session activities in the Guest Forum. They were intense, but I want to be clear on this, they didn't involve anything I didn't either A) express interest in or have prior experience with. Honestly, the biggest joke was when MVD was tickling me and I started saying that tickling was "almost" a hard limit for me. That made all the Mistresses enjoy tickling more, but I know I could have stopped it if I really needed to. One of the session activities left me pretty intoxicated, and I was humiliated by being ordered by HMK to sort of do a verbal performance. It's not worth explaining what it was but I started doing these vague, drunken hand-gestures trying to explain (while on my knees) and got more and more rattled as the Mistresses laughed at me. Later, I was subjected to some pain play that was right near my limit, and the intoxication may have helped make it more bearable. But my big memory of this was when Mistress Song did something pretty...sadistic...and then just yelled out something like "Oh my God I love this, this is the best thing ever!" Something like that...my head was swimming. It was the tone more than the words, I was in so much pain and so happy that she was having so much fun! There's nothing like that feeling of taking it for a Mistress' pleasure. Eventually training time was over and Mistress Aria Song took her leave, to be replaced by Mistress Eva Koi. Like I said I hadn't seen her for years and reintroduced myself by sharing a favorite memory of sessioning with her years ago. At the end of a session that left me in a warm glow but totally degraded, Mistress Koi was walking me towards the shower and put an arm on my shoulder. She said something like, "wow, you're really tall!" It made me laugh because it was this little compliment that made me feel 1% like a man again after she had spent the entire session reducing me to a pathetic sissy! The in-Fortress portion of the session ended and we (HMK, MVD, and Mistress Koi) went to dinner at a nice restaurant specializing in sushi. And honestly, despite what had happened in the Fortress, it was the dinner and post-dinner time that became the most humiliating and memorable! Mistress Koi ordered a large variety of sushi, which the Mistresses decided to feed to me directly after mocking my terrible chopstick skills (at one point, I guess I was holding them backwards)! But they decided that the sushi as-it-was was not appropriate for their little piggy slave, so it was modified. It started with that bewitching beauty, MVD, taking any piece of sushi one of the Mistresses didn't want, and dousing it with this killer hot sauce she brought with her. Seriously, she had this very small bottle of hot sauce she carried with her, and it was not your standard Texas Pete or Cholula. I suspect she bought it specifically for this D&D. Every time they stuck out a piece of sushi and commanded me to eat it in one bite, my eyes would water as I forced it down. Some of this sushi was full of these really salty fish eggs, but they too would get doused in hot sauce. For one piece, the Mistresses added so much wasabi that there was barely any sushi, and they made me take it down in one bite and swallow. Bear in mind, we were in a public restaurant. I mean, it was NYC, it takes a lot to phase people, but people at other tables saw this. The Mistresses were smashing the sushi flat too, like that scene from R100! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gGgXZvyFG5M One guy, sitting with these three beautiful women who were destroying him and laughing like crazy with every bite. At one point, I had to take a break and walk outside for fresh air because I was starting to sweat and my stomach was starting to turn. When I got back, the Mistresses asked if I was ok, and I said I was, so they prepared another piece of sushi loaded with wasabi and hot sauce and made me do it again! We were pretty much kicked out of the sushi place as they were closing (I left a good tip to make up for having made such a crazy scene). At this point, Mistress Koi had to leave but I had the great privallege of spending some more time with HMK and MVD, who truly have become my sadistic guardian angels who help me celebrate being alive once a year with laughing, smiling, and the complete destruction of the male ego. We spent time at a bar together where, if anything, the public humiliation was ramped up. After being force-fed sabotauged sushi, at the bar I had no control over what I drank. Either Mistress would see some cocktail they'd never tried, take a sip, and if they decided it was gross I had to drink it. That probably doesn't sound too bad, but I was getting very dehydrated and desperately needed water. Well every time water was brought, HMK would take away my glass, gulp it all up, swish it around in her mouth, and spit it back into my glass. Then she would pass it to me and make me drink it. It's making me hot just thinking about it...I was a little tipsy but I'm pretty sure the waiter saw this at least once and it happened a couple of times. MVD kept the verbal humiliation going...when ordering drinks for the table she asked the waiter (who I was forbidden to speak to) what the girliest drinks were and to bring me one in the girliest glass. Then she produced some glossy lipstick and made me up at the table, in front of the other patrons. At one point, I said something that offended my Mistresses and I was told to slap myself hard. And I did it, in public, at their command. I had to. I had to obey. There was one point where MVD saw some schmutz floating around in a water glass and asked the waiter to take it back. I was a little tipsy and sort of made a joke out of it, calling her a "Water Karen" complaining to the manager. That turned into it's own joke...oh man...I probably can't ever explain that properly. But the immediate effect was HMK (who had a pen, as I recall) grabbed my hand and started pushing the point into my palm really hard while quietly telling me not to scream. We wrapped up this incredible night at a club where, at one point, I was forced to get up and do a slutty, sexy dance. I paraded around our table sticking my butt out, trying to pole dance, etc. Eventually a bunch of other tables were hooting and hollering and laughing along, before I collapsed in exhaustion. That sort of sums the whole thing up. I paraded around, degrading myself as much as I could to see these amazing Goddesses laugh and smile at my shame, until I was physically exhausted. There's a very unique energy to a session with more than one Mistress as they ramp each other up and push things farther than most Mistresses would do in a solo session. It was a difficult session to psychlogically survive, but these may be my favorite Fortress memories ever!

I had the great privilege of doing a training session with Mistress Aria Song this weekend. I think I need to do any session review on the Member's Forum because of the intense, incredible session activities. But for anyone reading - she is truly something. Worthy of the Fortress and there is no higher compliment. Do yourself a favor and aid in the training of an amazing new Mistress while you still can.

I can't say I've ever had a delayed, PTSD orgasm before. Wow. Were you the Domme in this scenario, Headmistress Kang? This is amazing, this should be on somebody's Players Page to lead other subbies to their doom! I don't know if I have what it takes to get that deep into submission but I admire SA and am jealous of the experience.

Haha, now I’m thinking of old Blizzard games. “Fortress Booking, do you guys have insect wings and alien makeup? I’d like to do a Queen of Blades themed session where I’m an Infested Terran…”

Somehow, I always seem to be wrong...

Happy Thanksgiving all! I am thankful for my health and the Fortress!

I have a feeling both of these cops are bad cops/mean sisters!

Last weekend I got the opportunity to be used as a guinea pig as Mistress Von Dietz helped to train new Fortress Mistress Angel Feng, and it was quite the experience! To begin with, MVD and MAF entered the room as I was still laying out some toys I had brought and caught me before I could be in a proper position, kneeling facing the door and ready to serve. I apologized profusely but I knew I would be made to pay. Mistress Angel Fang (MAF) was wearing a beautiful white lacy outfit while Mistress Von Dietz (MVD) was wearing shiny black, so it was really like an angel and a devil were teaming up on me! Because I had requested a specific type of sissy humiliation, the first step was to subject me to the proper cleaning procedures. MVD supervised as this was MAF's first time with this activity. When I was clean enough not to offend the Mistresses, I was dressed up with piggy ears, a piggy snout, and piggy paws. I had to crawl around the room and was forbidden to speak, and instead made to oink. MVD has played this game before, but it was new to MAF who really enjoyed making me oink as loudly as possible. She wanted to hear a piggy in a state of total panic! I was also forced to try and lick both Mistress' boots, which was extremely difficult for me as the piggy nose kept getting in the way! But this was not accepted as an excuse and it was decided my boot worship was lazy and substandard. As a result, I faced more punishment. As part of the preparation for some emasculating sissy play I had requested, I was now put through some yoga poses, as well as assisted with some sadistic instruments, to make sure I was stretched and ready. The yoga turned into "piggy yoga" as I was forced to do Down Dog (which became Down Piggy) as well as Cat Lift and Cat Arch (which was naturally Piggy Lift and Piggy Arch). At the end, I was ready to wear a piggy tail for my Mistresses. To make sure the tail was secure, MAF started spanking my ass. And this led to a fun training memory where MVD broke in and explained verbally where to hit me with the minimum chance of causing actual injury while maximizing my pain. MVD then demonstrated and hit me harder, with more stinging, than MAF already had! You can count on the Fortress to train Goddesses to maximize safety, and subbie suffering, at the same time. MAF turns out to be interested in wax play, which is part of a list of activities I provided the Fortress as play I was not specifically requesting but also did not consider a hard limit. (As an aside to any subbie reading, I strongly suggest you try and avoid requesting so many activities that your Mistress can't provide input without skipping your requests, and if you have hard limits you should make them clear. They really appreciate that!) I had not done wax play at the Fortress for some time, and it was cool to experience it because it was a Mistress' interest and not part of something I scripted out. I remember MAF was on my left side, applying wax up and down my left leg and belly, while MVD was applying wax on the right. It was sort of amusing and dehumanizing to lie there helpless as the two Mistresses chatted about the candles they were using, and comparing the burn-rate and smell to another set of candles they had used before (for the record, I was tortured with candles that didn't smell as good but lasted longer). As often happens when you give candles to beautiful, sexual sadists who still have the spirit of a little girl in their hearts, various words and initials were written on my body in wax. I couldn't see but I think my body said stuff like "PIG," "FENG," "MVD," etc. As it turns out, MAF is a big fan of the pain from applying wax, while MVD was a big fan of the pain from REMOVING wax. On my left side, MAF was using a sort of scraping tool and trying to remove wax as smoothly and cleanly as possible, while MVD was laughing as she just ripped chunks of hair off of my legs! I had booked to see MAF and MVD together, but also added a little time at the end with MVD solo. By the way, before she left we chatted a bit about how she is getting into the swing of things at the Fortress. At the time of the session they were planning photo shoots for her Player Page, and she was excited about wearing a kinky cheerleader costume. I hope you subs are ready to live out those fantasies of the cutest girl in school bending you to her will! One on one time with MVD was very special, as I have seen her (all too infrequently) for years now. I actually had a training session with her and the Headmistress when she was new to the Fortress! But this was the first time I'd ever seen her one-on-one. MVD is stunning, there's no other way to put it. But in the solo session it really hit me that MVD is like the classic blonde bombshell Domina. She's like a Domina from hand-drawn Femdom porn from the old days. Like when you find illustrations for "Venus in Furs," or movie poster art from the old kinky exploitation films like "Ilsa the Tigress of Siberia." Just classic, voluptuous blonde Bitch-Goddess from Hell stuff. Maybe I shouldn't say that but I THINK she knows I mean it as a compliment! She's also super playful with subs (though I don't doubt for a minute she can be cold and silent if that's the energy desired in the scene). As an example of MVD being playful, she pulled off her bra and panties (maintaining her super sexy boots and corset) to watch my meager manhood squirm in its cage. Then, without warning, she started tickling me! This, actually, is something I ALMOST have written down as a hard limit before, because I have zero resistance to it and if I am not in restraints I am afraid I may involuntarily lash out at a Mistress. But the small number of Mistresses who have done it to me have always had a blast...it is precisely because I melt so quickly and completely that they enjoy it. As the tickling continued, MVD decided to slap me once or twice across the face. But then somehow, possibly because I was flailing my arms around trying to protect myself from the tickling, she hit upon the idea of making me slap myself in the face! At first, she guided my hands, but eventually she just ordered me to slap myself in the face, hard. When I started doing it rapidly, she started laughing devilishly and ordered me to count...and then decided she wanted me to slap myself 100 times! What else could I do? I started alternating cheeks, 50 slaps to each one, so at least the redness would be spread! Next, MVD hovered over me while I was on my back, and I remember feeling really warm and good because I could tell she'd been enjoying the session and was pleased at how I'd tolerated various disciplines to train MAF. I was struggling a bit to chat with her intelligently as my mind was slipping into sub-space. I distinctly remember losing the fight as I lamely mumbled something like "Do you like hurting me, Mistress?" (which is the kind of thing I say when I'm almost in a submissive trance and desperate for verbal confirmation that my Mistress is pleased). She laughed and said "no I hate it" while poking me with her fingernails again! I also remember when she was leaning over me, smiling, just having a fun and relaxing time hurting me, that I begged her, desperately, to please spit in my mouth. To sum up, I had an incredible time with two incredible ladies. Any subbies reading should do themselves a favor and make plans to serve today!

Damn, we lost one of the greats. She always made me laugh and feel kinda funny!

I had some very intense sessions with a Fortress Mistress in a therapist role, although they were not actually amongst her favorites. In it, she was my therapist observing as I was dominated by other Mistresses, and at the end we had a solo session. But she got bored being forced to watch and not participate in the lead-up! A major theme in my fantasy life, which was part of a fictional story I was posting on the forum in the past, is the idea of a Mistress using hypnotism to plant submissive desires in a man. My favorite fantasies often involve being at a Domme's knees, kissing her boots and begging for her to take me with a strap-on but not knowing why. And she'll laugh and ask me what's wrong with me...or tell me that she'll only do it if I promise to be her obedient slave afterwards...or warning me that whatever I think it will be like she will be merciless and make it painful...etc. And when I'm bent over and taking it, she explains that the reason I wanted her peg is because she hypnotized me and planted the suggestion in my mind!

Wow, is that a Sega Master System she's playing? I almost asked for one for Christmas instead of a Nintendo, what a mistake that would have been! Is there anything else I was supposed to notice in this picture?

Wonderful news! For anyone who never had the opportunity, Mistress Eva Koi is amazing! She's like a beautiful pixie who will cast a spell on you and make you helpless!

I feel like I can see two faces in the green...like someone caressing the central figure, who doesn't seem that enamored with it. I'm jealous now, you have other piggie subs!

Hmm...the first thing that pops to mind is something from a session earlier this year. It involved multiple Mistresses and "piggy play." I had brought in several dildos, so the Mistresses laid out a mat and placed a bunch of dildos out spaced apart from each other. I had to crawl, wearing piggy mitts and a piggy tail, around the room. I had to crawl between dildos, making multiple laps around the obstacle course without knocking anything over. Without my glasses it was really hard to see. I was not rushed, as the Mistresses were really enjoying watching me stress over each new challenge and try to slowly work through nudging dildos but not knocking them over. If I knocked anything over, I had to stand it back up using my piggy mitts and piggy snout. I think I will always remember this because it ended up being my last session with a Mistress that had become very special. I remember her saying, "What's he going to do now?" to one of the other Mistresses, and laughing really hard when I knocked one over and oinked in frustration. She had a very sweet voice but because she was talking to another Mistress, I got to hear it without being humanized by her addressing me directly.

I discovered the Fortress almost exactly 10 years ago, which makes this an easy question. My kink life before then was mostly about shame (the bad kind of shame, not the good kind!) Ask me again in five years and it will be different, because I'll have to contrast my early Fortress experience with my more recent experience.