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Ms. Kang ... Do you have a best guess as to when the Players will be able to be vaccinated ... it would seem that youth and beauty are at the bottom of the list. Also, is your under 50 rule still in effect?

Still plenty of time to buy some red envelopes... i'll wish you ..'Good Luck'.. now tho ! Both 'next years' are sure to be better.

Thought it was the Chinese New Year... No?

Which do you look forward to more.. Jan 1 or Feb 12 ?

CO... I'm happy to hear of your good fortune. You mentioned a chess game and it reminded me of a blog post I read the other day... https://feeds.feedblitz.com/~/640417920/0/sethsblog/posts~Whats-your-game/ *(Note the last paragraph). Yours is a new game on a new board with a new player and with no established rules.. So why does 'deserve' even enter into this game. ... And it is just a game.. not a competition. Seems wiser to simply enjoy participating in the game and not worry too much about the score.

CO ... welcome back ... Forgive the pun but like riding a bike ... you can never forget how.

You probably have to be exposed to the culture to get an understanding of it... My wife is Japanese, .. I've traveled there a number of times, .. i watch Japanese programing on tv,.. and enjoy novels by Japanese authors. The mind set is very different from western views ... they're more spiritual and are deep-thinkers about even the most mundane things in life. Think about the simple beauty of even a tiny Japanese garden,.. or the original Ninja Warrior programs from years ago that started in Japan ... far better than the current nonsense that has been Americanized.

Then you'd probably enjoy "My Brilliant Friend" on HBO.. seasons 1 and 2 .. excellent. The novels were very good and this didn't disappoint as is usually the case. The sub-titles made it so much more enjoyable. Takes place in post WWII Naples, with a cast of young unknown actors and the dialog is spoken in the true Neapolitan dialect ... which is beautiful to listen to ... so that you are immersed in the story. **** btw .. just watched the 1st episode of "The Vow" also on HBO, which looks interesting ... a documentary about the so called "sex cult" Nxivm that was reported on in detail by the NY Times in 2017.

You'll hate yourself if you have to leave after just one hour. A two hour session is a must...especially for a first timer.

Ms. Jin... you could become the perfect "Alita: Battle Angel"... (but with blue hair) ...no one would be able to defeat you. Not even the powerful "Jayman" on his best day.

I can sense the wistfulness in this .. as i've sensed it on other occasions. Truly hope you find it ... you've got a lot to offer the right one. Thanks, that means a lot. I'm relieved to see that you went with "wisfusion" rather than "condom" Stay well.

phil... Both are interconnected and both ring true to some degree .. and that kinda sums up my underlying confusion. Along with this observation, everything else you've mentioned in this thoughtful reply is on target, and even desirable in session. But while i could never allow real-time slavery to be a part of my life.. i'm concerned that another part of me might secretly crave the emotional rush of it to fill a void. And that would be troublesome for sure. I'll just have to tread carefully. .... Thanks Dr. phil, this back and forth has brought some clarity to my thoughts... be sure to send me your bill.

Ms. Jin, I'm guessing that no matter what I think is proper I should be sure to bring a large sock and a roll of quarters.

Hey DM... As soon as I saw Ms. Kang's reply, I said to myself... "how did I manage to get myself into such a classic DumbMule situation?" Never saw it coming.

phil ... thank you so much for your concern ..it means a lot and you're definitely hitting a few nerve endings here. Gonna reread your comments a few times and see where they take me... ttyl.

Thanks Ms. Kang , I suppose that's the safe way... but subs are always told that communication is most important. On the forums, for the most part, i've been addressing all of the mistresses using the honorific "Ms." ... except for MVD.. who seems comfortable with that title. I have noticed that some subs occasionally refer to their Domms by last name only ... but that seems a bit too familiar and disrespectful. So after some secret struggling,.. during our last session I finally just told Ms. Jin that I was having trouble with the "M" word and preferred to address her as Goddess ... She said there could be different respectful titles for different circumstances.. So we sorta' resolved part of it .. (I think?) While she listened to what i had to say she didn't make a clear decision either way ... Her silence on the subject was a little unnerving and I suspect she'll either weigh in when she has more to say, or perhaps correct my behavior without warning if she's displeased.

phil,.. Thanks for you input and for helping me to air this out a bit. Your suggestion would work if i had your ability to transform myself so completely into the character .. but i'm too self conscious to carry that off. Just scratch the surface and my real self would be exposed. And oddly, as i think about this now, part of my real self may be looking forward to being degraded to the point of slavery and made to address my dominate as my "Mistress". While in therapy i learned that i've been emotionally barren for quite some time now, so i feel that maybe the experience of being "emotionally broken" should outweigh the need for some dignity. Feeling even a somewhat negative emotion seems better than having no emotional stimulation at all.

Or maybe John McEnroe ?? Didn't he like hamsters?

Hey DM .. You're in a good place.. you've resigned yourself to happily conform to whatever the circumstances dictate and make the most of them. But i'm conflicted ... i think i'm still wrestling with the "pathetic" conundrum. I'm comfortable with being openly pathetic in session ... but in my "mind" i'd prefer to eak out a just a tiny bit of "dignity" while still being thoroughly dominated. Conversely, this morning *philosophicalsub* posted an inspiring and vivid picture of a thoroughly broken, pathetic slave, one that i would love to someday experience. My problem may be that i don't know what it is to be "broken" ... or where the pieces will fall. Due to a particular set of circumstances, i haven't been able to session enough times to be guided into that blissfully lowest level of submission. I'm conflicted but not complaining.

Goddess or Mistress? ... I've found that have trouble saying "Mistress" out loud. While it might be just a matter of semantics, since the results are the same, it seems more honorable to have arrived at that foregone destination by worshiping your Goddess rather than being a slave to your Mistress. Perhaps you can take some small amount of pride in the fact that acceptance through devotion is what drives you to that end, rather than fear of a more severe punishment. One is a choice made by you ... the other is an verdict that's been inflicted upon you. But still ... there is always the possibility that one who proudly worships might be yet be broken and reduced to a slave. And that too can be tantalizing ... like being one additional level below what you had considered your absolute bottom.

The year itself "feels" auspicious.. just the look of it is inspiring ... MMXX ... its precise and orderly arrangement standing tall, with a Goddess-like aura to its appearance. Anno Domini MMXX is clearly Jin's year for rewarding accomplishments... (Anno Domin-atrix ?) Just go forth Goddess ... with blue hair flowing in your wake.

kevy... I'm in complete agreement ... Trust & Confidence ... they are essential to relaxing and will come easily if you open your mind. For me, The Fortress is kind of a sacred place, that I trust completely. Not only safe, as you've noted, but the "Fortress Bubble" is a sanctuary where i can confess or reveal literally anything from my past ... or even any embarrassing humiliation I might hope (or fear) to one day to experience. Needless to say, i have no one in my life that i could share any of this with,.. and i wasn't close to being able to let my vanilla therapist into my kink-space. Yet exposing myself to Ms. Jin ...(a casual stranger that i somehow trust completely)... is cathartic. I don't think I've ever lived a "pathetic" minute in my vanilla life, but being somewhat pathetic with Ms. Jin is comforting to me ... (she once told me that she prefers her subs that way). The fact that my she might discuss my private thoughts with the other mistresses is not at all troublesome,.. it's more of an enhancement ... where she might get further insight or suggestions on my treatment ... Or just have a good laugh at my expense. So, ... welcome strangers ... enter the bubble knowing you are absolutely safe to explore and experience.

Well, BTB, that changes everything ... it now appears that Ms. Jin did indeed sympathize with your plight and showed remarkable restraint by not sticking a crutch up your ass before kicking you to the curb. Hope you said "thank you Mistress" and apologised for being such a wimp. In a post not long ago, when for some reason i questioned whether or not i would survive a Jin session, she told me .. "stop your whining ... there are worse ways to go."

alex, In addition to all of the above, make every effort to book a second hour, (with the nude option if possible.) Once the butterflies settle and your eyes are no longer glazed over, you'll be glad you did. You're welcome.

and share it with us as often as possible ... as should we all ... we could gift him a box seat at Ford's Theater (think Twilight Zone)