franknot

Just had to google it ... I like "Foreign Devil" and "Barbarian" the best... they ..(not me).. truly deserve the cane. My wife is Japanese so that makes me a simple "Outsider" Foreigner Outsider (Japanese) Red hair White pig foreign devil Barbaria

Of course you're right.. it would be the best possible exit ?... Are you always so logical? You might be able to wipe the smile off my face ? before the paramedics arrive...but how will you explain those vivid red hand prints on my cold, white ass. Please ask Ms. Kang to mount a small brass memorial plaque in the grey room ... how about.. "Frank (definitely is) Not" with the date. But please, no flowers and stuffed toy animals ... it's so tacky.

I think we both know that try as i might, i will manage to somehow disappoint you ...and then you'll have to express your displeasure in any number of imaginative ways.

Ms. Jin.. My plan is to disrupt your plan by overwhelming you with too many options... and so while trying to choose one or two that might please you most, you'll lose concentration. While i'm far from being a masochist, my plan 'B' involves enduring the necessary pain and humiliation to simply experience your presence and to feel your occasional touch. "Demise" might be too strong a word for someone my age to contemplate... but It seems that you've managed to energize me,.. i now have a purpose ... to stay as fit as i can .. then meet you and "survive" you.

Maybe no air at all, ...possibly a vacuum ...you may find yourself gazing into a bottomless void. Wish you'd have said "I'm fairly certain" rather than "100% certain", ... now i'll have to try to be extremely clever for fear of disappointing you... Hey, no pressure .. right??

I'll think of those as the "Tasting Menu" ... but i'll send along some additional "tapas" suggestions to Ms. Emma. ...Am i being overly masochistic by giving you even more ammo ?... probably, but more information may be helpful for you to make a thorough diagnosis.

Hey CO,..missed you guy ... Always look forward to reading your posts... you can make misery seem like a wonderful adventure. Guess it's good that you're busy but miss those short stories too. Stay well (???), frank

Humiliation is the abasement of pride, which creates mortification or leads to a state of being humbled or ... ... ... reduced to lowliness or submission. It is an emotion felt by a person whose social status, either by force or willingly, has just decreased... Wikipedia But is it still humiliation or a loss of pride if you crave it, and wallow in it when your finally, happily, receive it?. Having said that, let me count the ways... but physical only ... verbal would just roll of my back without notice. So my top 5 are : 1 - spitting/drooling in my mouth (with face slapping, hair pulling and/or choking) 2 - golden shower with tasting 3 - spanking, (followed by being collared & leashed and then being lead for further punishment 4 - Smother box 5 - pegging *** Just curious about forced cross-dressing ??.. there is some strange attraction, but confused about this one.

I agree with your solution for treating the "needs" problem .. i've been sidelined with an injury and it's been months since my last visit. But .... More importantly, i think we're on the same page in that the best way to deal with my "inner demons" and also "to quench your curiosity" will be a two hour visit with my psychotherapist. Ms. Emma tells me that the "Doctor's Office" should be ready for patients soon. *************************** So .. I now have this bizarre, mental image,.. (think "The Bone Clocks" by David Mitchell) ... of Dr. Jin getting up from behind her desk after a brief interview to discuss therapy options, and walking slowly around behind my chair... i can feel her fingers in my hair ..searching ?? .. and then hear a faint click .. she somehow unzips the crown of my head and spreads the opening wide with her thumbs ... she peeks inside and says softly ..."Ahh, yes, there are some very recognizable kinks, but some are bent in the wrong direction and not shaped properly .. these must be corrected immediately." She then zips me back up, pats my head and goes on to say that ... "Fortunately, i know just how to go about that... Now stand up, remove your clothing, and follow me... From this moment on you will do exactly as i tell you"............

Ms. Jin ... thank you for your encouraging response... I started to write to Ms. Emma but quickly found that it's not easy to be brief and also be explicate enough, so some editing will be needed before sending. While "inner demons" sounds sexy and mysterious, i think it's simply a confused uncertainty of my level of submissiveness and how i responded to previous sessions. What i do know for certain is that this need for being controlled and handled,.. and all that it might entail,.. has become increasingly intense.

Hmm .. you seem to be channeling me .. I think i'll need to schedule an appointment with the perceptive Dr. Jin. If i were to send Ms. Emma a brief bio that would allow you to peek inside my troubled D/s psyche ..perhaps you could expand on your thought by injecting some real life guidance into a 2 hour "Therapist Office" scenario.

That's comforting Ms Kang, thankyou... ... And what better place to be advised than on "The Therapist Office" couch in "The Gray Room".

Yes.. of course .. But i guess I didn't state that question very well.. I was wondering if, while just talking before or after the session, if a sub were to confide something personal, .. (that for obvious reasons he's not able to share in his vanilla relationships) .. would Mistress consider giving some serious advice or guidance? Or must she always maintain a safe emotional distance and not allow herself to become involved?

Ms. Jin, I understand that "playing" is a generic term .. and i get that you're passionate about what you do .. but is it always considered "play"? Do you ever let "serious" or "meaningful" enter into a session? There's a good reason for my asking, so thanks if you choose to answer.

But what happens when you're not happy? ... Well yeah, of course , there's that ?.? But what i mean is ... what if you just wake up in a bad or sad mood, or with a migraine? .. Do you take that to the office with you? ...and god help today's clients, regardless of how hard they try to please you. Or are you able to put it aside for a few hours and be your usual professional self?

Lately, the only porn that will consistently arouse me is watching a sub or a slave in restraints being punished with almost any implement... strap, lash, crop, whip and even cane... but i find i'm most affected by the extreme force of the blows and the facial expressions of the Mistress as they are being administered .. Be it hate or caring, anger or joy, amusement or disdain ... sometimes it's undeniably real, and not an act. Watching and reading the face of the Mistress as she works is my greatest turn on. While i have many other kinks i crave restraint and punishment and have experienced quite a few strokes at my last session, but i know i wouldn't be able to endure the severe beatings being administered on porn.

i've always contacted Ms. Emma with questions or problems .. and while there has been a time or two that i would have appreciated her counsel, I never thought to email Ms. Kang directly. It just seemed to me to be somewhat presumptuous. Hope this is not opening a door to a sticky topic.

Thanks for your help and advise with this. I've ordered something inexpensive in a black lace just to see how it will work .. but it looks kinda sissy. (Might have to get some undies to match.)

Thanks, Ms Kang... don't think i'll be able to deal with the hood, but the lace/mesh blindfold sounds good. Is there anything available at the fortress or shall i shop for something? Also what do you recommend for shutting out sound ...

I've been browsing the forums while planning for a session and came across Sensory Deprivation. The more i consider it as a part of the session, the more it appeals to me. But homefight hit the mark perfectly ..especially about being deprived of seeing my Mistress practicing her craft. Wondering if there's a "work around" solution

Ahhh ... Thanks Kutta ..i see things more clearly now. It's good to know that i will be allowed some input with the initial theory and rules. Of course they'll be quickly disregarded, but it's a starting point and a vague direction. And who doesn't love an occasional surprise.

Kutta, Thanks for sharing your session with us... not sure why but thoughts of this game and all it could provide has inspired me anew. I was wondering how much of this theme was pre-planned with Ms. Emma ,... or if the Mistresses just surprised you with the idea of a card game and it's rules when you arrived.

The panties/underwear part of the game is somewhat confusing ...Could Mistress Emma purchase panties for each of you and let me know how much extra i should put in the tribute envelope? If you could wear the panties for a little while before the session, hopefully i could be enveloped in your scent while they are on my face... and if they're a little bit soiled, so much the better. Should i also wear a pair of women's panties ?.. what do you guys suggest?

I like this game .. can anyone play? Was this a one or two hour session? ... Could Mistresses panties be substituted for men's underwear ?... could being hosed down be substituted for drinking from a glass ?